— let’s talk about him.

i no longer like him but he still thinks i do, anyway, i hadn’t seen him since early may until last week wednesday where i saw him enter a store and im pretty sure he thought i was taking a picture of him when i was actually trying to take a picture of the flowers outside of the store

— tuesday was act day so i was stuck w him the whole day and he was being a little awkward but i got through it .. then i had to go back and get stuff before i left but r had to be with me (2 other girls came w me too) he kinda grabbed my arm very light and gentle and I’m ngl it sent the butterflies in my stomach soaring

— a bit ago a got my backpack zipper stuck on a tag and the other day my friend (who which has the same bag) did the same thing and i said “the other day r had to help me cut it” and he looked up at me. time passed and then he cut the tag off her backpack too ,, anyways he started talking “soo.. y this happened to you too?” he was being really awkward and shy idk

oh and also the way he says my name?? he kinda yells at everyone else and then he just says mine so calmly

when j was leaving he said “good night ladies .. have a good night” and looked right at me .. i was on my phone but i saw him from the corner or my eye

why? i do not know. do not ask me.

half of me is cheering me on

(he brought his daughter) his baby was on the bleachers and j was on the mat with the coaches. the baby started screaming “pa” which is like dad yk and i was the only one who noticed

i went to my friend and said “hey she’s looking for her dad and he’s over there and she’s on the bleachers i would take her to him but i can’t so can you?” and she did which i’m so incredibly great ful for omg

on thursday i went up to him to get something signed because i was going to be gone friday bc of wrestling

anyways i said really quietly “mr could you sign this for me?” and he said “yeah, tomorrow?” i nodded and he said back gently “okay there’ll be two assignments on google classroom and when you turn them in make sure to email me and tell me why they were late”

and then friday in homeroom he had us to resumes for a scholarship and he went around making sure we all started it he came up to my friend and he was somewhat stalling and i was shaking lmaoo anyways he came up to me and started reading

he said “oh you live on the actual *address* ? that’s cool” and he kinda laughed about it

he was being really sweet and gentle and not like usually because this man literally talks in capital letters but anyway , that’s it

on tuesday we had grade checks and compared to everyone else he yelled my name and kept a straight face .. he said my name two more times bc of an award thing but he seemed calmer