vada

can't even explain how new I feel tbh

need to go to the beach

spent all day watching anime in the bath I am healed

i feel really emotional about becoming a pilot or talking about it it's hard to share because it feels like Its such a big thing to start on but when my friends bring it up I feel so seen and loved they believe in me and will let me yap to high hell about it

and nothing can rlly beat laying with ur friends and being held so close like you are perfect treasure after partying all night and yes I will be staring at how beautiful they r and giving a random kiss here or there

could scream

god I miss everything and everyone and even when I try to just be alone with me it hurts !!! i do not want to be alone

i feel like I can't tell anyone anything b cause I'm so fucking anxious and angry alr that if they dnt respond how I want I'll tweakk!! also I don't have plans 4 later yet pain