Happy New Year, guys!

Thank you for this year, we did our best.

I wish for us to be professionals in next year, to know what we do and what for, to support each other and to ask for help if necessary. There are not many things that we can influence, but it is worth at least trying to avoid unnecessary trouble. Appreciate what brings you joy and cherish it.

Don’t forget about humor and kindness, it makes life better)

So I got inspired.

Hope that's OK.

Here is my Art Summary of 2022！✨

“Let’s have more wonderful and fun times in 2022！” That’s exactly what I said in last year’s art summary…

Well… my brain doesn’t forget things easily, especially things I’ve experienced. I remember almost everything/everyday about this whole year. So when I think about 2022, I suddenly start crying …idk why (this is also one of the reasons why this year’s art summary is a bit late) that’s why it took me time to try to write something without crying.

Okay… Since I love the numbers 2 or 22, I had high hopes for this year. Yes I also believe in lucky numbers like good/bad wishes. Or, I used to believe… yes ‘cause i don’t believe anymore. Normally I can’t say sentences like “I believe or I don’t believe this” very easily. For me to lose faith in something, i have to be seriously disappointed by it. And now, that’s probably not the right word for my true feelings but, 2022 really disappointed me！

Especially after March, I felt like i was buried alive…

I lost my faith, i lost my hope, i lost my job for a period, i lost my cat, I lost a loved one of my relatives. I remember nights when I had crying spells saying “enough is enough, i can’t take it anymore”. Many times I wanted to erase everything and disappear… yes I also knew it was weakness, cowardice ……but maybe i was just afraid. I was afraid of losing myself, i was afraid of losing my mind… A lot of people don’t like to read/listen to negative thoughts so i keep my feelings inside anymore (and I’ll probably even regret writing all this later) but just my heart is broken… and i’m still trying to heal it. But I also know that some wounds never heal, so just try to live with it, still and still… Yes… I know, nobody said the year would be easy… but no one ever said it would be this hard. At least for me, it didn’t go well.

I really remember very few good moments for this year… so all that’s left is some tears from my side……

And now, let me thank you to anyone who has patiently read this far. Thank you so much for supporting my arts and even me too for another year！Despite everything, I’m still happy to finally be able to make an art summary where I fill all the months with a piece ^^！You guys (and some special ones) are one of the biggest reasons I can still walk. I’m always grateful！

Snstober 2022

Hey, I’m not dead and also I haven’t grown out of my Naruto phase either.

♾ @snsmonth22 - Day11 「I love you in every universe」