i self ship with bushidrill

i probably was really desperate and pathetic when pursuing bushidrill like .... “you should date me... jk.       unless.....”

it worked because he either felt bad or appreciated my attempt

my confession to him is just me sobbing uncontrollably and repeating “i love you i love you omg i love you so much”

he responded by kind of puling me close and hesitantly patting my back

we don’t feel comfortable making it public 

we’re both very passive and bad at feelings. so our first two months being together were very uneventful and awkward

our first “argument” involved me feeling like an attention whore for having to initiate things. he didn’t know how to respond and i apologized right after

i just want to take care of him ya feel me. and i do take care of him

:( 

he would listen to my rambling and take me to sushi bars 

constant “can i hold your hand” “can i lay on your chest”

i still tag his official account on twitter and say shit like “you’re doing amazing sweetie” 

he tries not to blush when i tell him he’s so hecking handsome