on saturdays we meet up

SHIV ROY + backless dresses:

Gabriela Hearst Betty Open-back Wool-blend Dress In Navy

Jay Godfrey Cameo Gown

online, people say cut them off casually. they say - you'll feel amazing and your life will be so much better, trust me.

sometimes it isn't better. sometimes the other end of that is hard, and kind-of worse. it's lonely, and angry, and sad. it's picking up the phone thinking to text them. it's not being able to listen to that album anymore, it sounds like the time you spent with them. sometimes it's slow, guilty nights.

sometimes even the worst people are lovely. they can make your whole life glitter. yes, that glitter is also shattered glass - but it does all sparkle, don't it? they filled your hours and your mind. gave you something to hold on to, even if that something was anger and hurt. without them, life can be... bland. undefined.

you can sit there, knowing - they were a magnet pulling my compass off and then still wish you had that pull back. now your compass is just spinning around on its own.

it's worth it, always. but sometimes feeling like-it's-worth-it takes months. sometimes years. you'll look back from the ever-slow progress you've made, and there will be no confetti you did it! or big-sudden sense of peace. just plodding along carefully. missing them. hating yourself for wishing it hadn't happened.

it's okay. it won't always be easy to leave.

You know, it’s hard for me to think about wealth, to be real with you, because I’ve never had it. To me, it’s really about the essence of who these human beings are. For Stewy, wealth is everything. For Kian, love is everything. I think he really wants to feel loved, and he doesn’t really get it and doesn’t know how to get it until the very end. And with Todd, I think he’s just trying to get people to take him seriously. So I kind of stuck those poles into that ground for all three of those characters; they just all happen to be wealthy. Before Succession, I’ve only played Middle Eastern, poor, downtrodden, so it’s so surreal to me. 

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. And where the fear has gone, there will be nothing. Only I will remain.