You are going to figure things out. But you must understand that there is no set timeline for this kind of discovery, there is no checklist for this kind of growth.

You may fall in love tomorrow, or you may fall in love ten years from now.

You might discover your passion the day after you graduate, or you might be fifty years old before you finally find the thing that causes your heart to ache with happiness.

Whatever it is—just give it time. Be gentle with yourself; do not rush the way you stretch into the person you are becoming. Do not scramble to fill your life with things that are not for you just because you feel like you are falling behind. You are not falling behind—you are falling into yourself. So please, keep going.

Everything that is meant to be yours will be yours. It will come. 

It will come.”

Ha

You’re just the trigger. It’s not about you not loving me back. It’s about you and everyone who cannot see my worth. From my parents to friends to guys I loved. All of you. I am broken because of everyone. And I hate myself for thinking like this. I’ve always been the one to see or look for the brighter sides but now.. now all I can see are the shadows. That dark part of everything, everyone. And I hate myself for that. I’m not supposed to feel this way. I’m not supposed to feel ungrateful.

I am broken and I hate myself for being broken.

I hate myself for not being enough.

I hate myself for being so unlovable.

I know I know it’s not their fault. I know that.

I’m not blaming anyone.

It’s not their fault that I am so hard to love.

But why is it like that?

Why is it hard for them to love me?