taylor marie, baby

dear mx marie,

I honestly am having the hardest time getting through the song.

its truly been too long - its been years since I ran away, with tears in my eyes, in the park that day.

I drove 3 hours for you to say we were Just friends to my face. But here we are now, somehow someway.

today will be a happy day.

so far it has been, anyway.

lemme get into it, before I get into today's bit.

I woke up late, but somehow completed my entire routine,

then got surprised with extra hours at work- which really pleased me.

my routine at work was the best flow I've ever found,

my residents are really the best around.

I have a new resident, who I saw had an italian charm bracelet!

I was so excited to share, that I had just built mine with such care.

she told me she couldn't fit hers, that it was too tight too wear,

i was too pleased that I had extra blank chains now to spare.

I brought those to her today,

truly a personal hooray.

that I remembered the whole next week, & even on the right day.

I'm so proud of today's good deed of the day, now her charm bracelet is here to stay.

when I got home, my dog greeted me, & we fled to the backyard to play while we were parent free.

I loaded up my psyduck bong, and started dancing along to happy songs

I started singing, rhyming along to my own tune,

in between smoking of course, too.

it was bright, it was hot, but finally I felt it, finally for a mere minute I was alive.

one day soon, I will thrive.

I'm sure I gave my neighbors a laugh, I got pretty loud, I'll leave it at that.

so darling, that was my day. you see why I want to stay happy in this way?

back to today, more specifically the song.

what if...

what if I rewrite it? so this version is just ours to sing along?

I still remember

the look on your face,

shocked in the darkness

missed 1:58,

the song that you showed me for just us to know

in the yard you took pictures of the lights on our toes…..

don’t go away

...

I do recall now

the small of the pool

fresh off the pavement,

we had made our own waves.

that July 9th the beat of your heart,

it jumped through your shirt, there were chills on your arms.

But now I'll go home alone, writing your poems.

All that I know is I don't know how to live without your kiss,

I don't even recall our last kiss,

don't wanna end like this...

your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember

the trail by your house

yoga in the park,

impressed by you again,

i look in your eyes,

& then you pull me in,

I still have the photos,

they cover my playlists

because I loved your mother,

meeting my father,

they both drove halfway,

for us to get to a concert

1989 was the light of my life

there's not a day I don't

reminisce on those moments.

And I'll go home, alone

writing your poems

All that I know is I don't know, how to live without your kiss

I don't even recall our last kiss

don't wanna end like this

your name,

forever the name on my lips

So ill watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

And I feel scared you'll forget me like i used to feel you breathe

And I update my friends so much, they ask how you are

i say i hope its nice where you are.

And I hope the sun shines, & its a beautiful day

And something reminds you, with her you shouldn’t stay

you can plan for a change in weather and time

I don’t know what ill do,

If you don't call this time.

So Ill go, home alone writing your poems

All that I know is I don't know how to live without your kiss

I don't even recall our last kiss

don't wanna end like this

your name, forever in my heart in gold

don't wanna end like this

forever the name on my lips

forever the name on my lists