CRUEL WORLD , MUST I GO ON ?

' love is always harder. '

' time to armor up. '

' maybe god would be more generous if you swore less. '

' i suppose you killed him. '

' forgiveness, then, is possible even for the worst. '

' if it goes badly for us, run like a young man. '

' i don't ride with him. '

' she was tempted by something stronger than her. '

' many of them died. '

' well, i do what i say. which is why i don’t say much. '

' i killed her for talking. '

' not without love. not without forgiveness. '

' it's just a dream. '

' i thought souls were invisible. '

' you bleeding all over my things doesn't help you, me, or anybody. understand? '

' don't kill him. don't kill anyone else again. '

' are we really going to the river? '

' your joking is pleasant, but it doesn't hide the hole in you. '

' what have we done to make god so mad at us? '

' it seemed the darkness had no end. '

' no tears, and no talk of devils. '

' making you happy is not my job. '

' you only half believe there's a monster at the river. '

' how did heaven come into all of this? '

' he shouldn't have made things so hard on us. '

' you just have to say yes or no. '

' you're not supposed to do that. '

' let us do what we will, and take what we may. '

' some righteous people still hold faith. '

' they want you. '

' i find it very pretty. '

' i'm not going to let you die for having a kind heart. '

' if you were not deaf to your own heart, you would know. '

' there's something weak in this man. '

' this is the one thing i can do as well as anyone else. '

' hell, like prison, is worse when you don't feel you've earned it. '

' we’re all dead men, and women. '

' what are you looking for? '

' are there souls at all? '

' do not leave me alone. '

' they'll kill the good ones first, and when all the good men are dead, they'll come for men like you. '

' what was it that happened? '

' i counter what you don't know with what i do know. '

' he wants chaos and death? '

' all we can do is try to have a little fun before the mower comes for us, eh? '

' you'll get your castle back. '

' you're just saying these things to make yourself feel better. '

' we are in a grave already, all of us. '

' they'll take good and bad alike to hell. '

' love is the loss of self, the loss of other, and faith in the death of loss. '

' this is exceptional stew. '

' all is lost. '

' i'm glad you two are so godsdamned happy. '

' what have we done that our fathers and their fathers have not done? '

' his sleep is deep. '

' it is important to know the names of things. '

' death, where are your teeth? '

"Don’t look back."

"I missed you."

"It’s too late."

"Please don’t go."

"You promised me."

"Who did this?"

"I forgive you."

"We were gods."

"Leave me alone."

"They found us."

"Trust me, please."

"I need help."

"Run. Don’t stop."

"It wasn’t me."

"I remember everything."

"Burn it all."

"Tell me why."

"You never called."

"It’s just rain."

"You owe me."

"She’s not breathing."

"Is that blood?"

"You were right."

"It ends now."

"We start over."

"Stay with me."

"Nothing feels real."

"I hate this."

"Do it now."

"They're watching us."

"Make it stop."

"It's not yours."

"I was waiting."

"He’s behind you."

"They’re all gone."

"Time is up."

"Bring them back."

"It’s our turn."

"This is wrong."

"Don’t let go."

"We are cursed."

"No one knows."

"You're not real."

"Don’t say it."

"I saw everything."

"Nothing ever changes."

"Call it off."

"What are you?"

"I found it."

she knew that it was her father's problem . alexander bakov was sick , and she couldn't abandon him . whenever she thought about leaving him to whatever fate awaited those who didn't pay up she'd grow ill . he wasn't a good man , but he was her father . . . what else did she have ?

𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐓  𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐔𝐑  𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐀𝐍  𝐇𝐀𝐒  𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐃  //  from  rdr2   .  (  request  )  an  assortment  of  dialogue  prompts  from  lines  said  in  silly  fashion  by  arthur  morgan  (  the  silliest  outlaw  in  the  states  )  in  rockstar's  red  dead  redemption  2   .  a  mixture  dialogues  ,  missions  and  cutscenes   . 

 "   that's  some  strong  stuff …  doesn't  seem  to  be  doing  you  any  harm  though  .   "   

"  you're  my  favorite  parasite  ...  no,  wait,  ringworm's  my  favorite  parasite,  you're  my  second-favorite  parasite  ...  i  lied  .  ringworm,  then,  rats  with  the  plague,  then  you  .  "

"  you  want  rescuing  again ,  do  you  ?   "

"  we'll  survive …  always  have …  if  needs  be;  we  can  eat  you  .  "

"  eighteen  percent  ?   i  thought  we  was  doing  the  robbing  here  .  "

"  maybe  we  should  cut  you  open  and  count  the  rings  of  whiskey  .  "

"  we  each  made  15  dollars ,  oh,  and  a  quarter  !  don't  forget  the  quarter  !  "

"  should  i  just  ...  sneak  on  now  ?   "

"  just  keep  running  into  prized  idiots  like  you  .  "

"  i've  had  better  days ,  that's  for  sure  .  but  i  look  at  you  and  i  know  things  can  always  be  worse  .  "

"  … whatever  you  say …  boss  .  "

"  can  i  turn  myself  in  ?   "

"  look ,  i'm  sorry ,  friend  .  i  can  barely  speak  english  .  "

"  i  do  my  utmost  to  avoid  you  .  "

"  i'll  turn  you  into  a  goddamn  cauliflower …  "

"  forgive  me  if  i  slip  and  stab  you  in  the  face  .  "

"  next  time ,  let  the  wolves  eat  all  your  brain  ...  then  you'll  be  a  genius  .  "

"   you  really  need  to  think  about  taking  a  bath  .  "

"   you ,  sir ,  are  a  fish  .  "

"   i  got  a  gift  right  here  !   "

"   …  and  you  unfortunately  survived  ?   "

"   you  call  this  land  ?   feels  like  water  to  me  .  "

"  as  long  as  we  get  paid,  or  you  get  shot,  i'm  happy  .  "

"  well …  at  least  it  isn't  your  job  .  "

"  you  are  a  compulsive  liar  .  "

"  jesus …  what  is  that  ?   "

"  careful  not  to  work  yourself  to  death  there …  "

"  you  know  …  i  thought  about  getting  into  hosiery  .  but  i  just  look  better  in  a  suit  .  "

"  remind  me  to  rob  your  trains,  mister  .  "

"  …  me  and  my  big  mouth  .  "

"  that's  an  idea  …  maybe  the  first  time  you've  ever  had  one  of  them  !   "

"  fight  this  mob …  they'd  eat  me  alive  .  "

"  no  one  would  have  me …  "

"  that  attempt  to  seem  all  enigmatic  and  interesting …  just  makes  you  look  stupid  .  "

"  must  be  tough  being  rich,  huh  .  "

"  …  i  was  being  serious  .  "

"  i'm  glad  i'm  not  your  brother …  "

"  gah …  i  broke  the  goddamn  wheel  !   "

"  oh  i'm  sorry …  was  their  insufficient  feathers  in  your  pillow  ?   "

"  … are  you  secretly  normal  ?   "

"  that'll  be  on  my  gravestone  !   "

"  is  that  perfume  you're  wearing …  or  did  a  cat  piss  on  some  kerosene  ?   "

"  you're  as  lazy  as  a  toad  and  twice  as  ugly …  " 

𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐓  𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐔𝐑  𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐀𝐍  𝐇𝐀𝐒  𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐃  //  from  rdr2   .  (  request  )  an  assortment  of  dialogue  prompts  from  lines  said  in  silly  fashion  by  arthur  morgan  (  the  silliest  outlaw  in  the  states  )  in  rockstar's  red  dead  redemption  2   .  a  mixture  dialogues  ,  missions  and  cutscenes   . 

 "   that's  some  strong  stuff …  doesn't  seem  to  be  doing  you  any  harm  though  .   "   

"  you're  my  favorite  parasite  ...  no,  wait,  ringworm's  my  favorite  parasite,  you're  my  second-favorite  parasite  ...  i  lied  .  ringworm,  then,  rats  with  the  plague,  then  you  .  "

"  you  want  rescuing  again ,  do  you  ?   "

"  we'll  survive …  always  have …  if  needs  be;  we  can  eat  you  .  "

"  eighteen  percent  ?   i  thought  we  was  doing  the  robbing  here  .  "

"  maybe  we  should  cut  you  open  and  count  the  rings  of  whiskey  .  "

"  we  each  made  15  dollars ,  oh,  and  a  quarter  !  don't  forget  the  quarter  !  "

"  should  i  just  ...  sneak  on  now  ?   "

"  just  keep  running  into  prized  idiots  like  you  .  "

"  i've  had  better  days ,  that's  for  sure  .  but  i  look  at  you  and  i  know  things  can  always  be  worse  .  "

"  … whatever  you  say …  boss  .  "

"  can  i  turn  myself  in  ?   "

"  look ,  i'm  sorry ,  friend  .  i  can  barely  speak  english  .  "

"  i  do  my  utmost  to  avoid  you  .  "

"  i'll  turn  you  into  a  goddamn  cauliflower …  "

"  forgive  me  if  i  slip  and  stab  you  in  the  face  .  "

"  next  time ,  let  the  wolves  eat  all  your  brain  ...  then  you'll  be  a  genius  .  "

"   you  really  need  to  think  about  taking  a  bath  .  "

"   you ,  sir ,  are  a  fish  .  "

"   i  got  a  gift  right  here  !   "

"   …  and  you  unfortunately  survived  ?   "

"   you  call  this  land  ?   feels  like  water  to  me  .  "

"  as  long  as  we  get  paid,  or  you  get  shot,  i'm  happy  .  "

"  well …  at  least  it  isn't  your  job  .  "

"  you  are  a  compulsive  liar  .  "

"  jesus …  what  is  that  ?   "

"  careful  not  to  work  yourself  to  death  there …  "

"  you  know  …  i  thought  about  getting  into  hosiery  .  but  i  just  look  better  in  a  suit  .  "

"  remind  me  to  rob  your  trains,  mister  .  "

"  …  me  and  my  big  mouth  .  "

"  that's  an  idea  …  maybe  the  first  time  you've  ever  had  one  of  them  !   "

"  fight  this  mob …  they'd  eat  me  alive  .  "

"  no  one  would  have  me …  "

"  that  attempt  to  seem  all  enigmatic  and  interesting …  just  makes  you  look  stupid  .  "

"  must  be  tough  being  rich,  huh  .  "

"  …  i  was  being  serious  .  "

"  i'm  glad  i'm  not  your  brother …  "

"  gah …  i  broke  the  goddamn  wheel  !   "

"  oh  i'm  sorry …  was  their  insufficient  feathers  in  your  pillow  ?   "

"  … are  you  secretly  normal  ?   "

"  that'll  be  on  my  gravestone  !   "

"  is  that  perfume  you're  wearing …  or  did  a  cat  piss  on  some  kerosene  ?   "

"  you're  as  lazy  as  a  toad  and  twice  as  ugly …  " 

arms  crossed  ,  sat  with  head  hung  low  .       one  too  many  nos  in  too  little  time  .  a  huff  and  pant  ,  the  exhaust  on  his  face  ,  the  growl  that  erupted  from  the  mountaineering  chest  as  he  sat  on  the  log  stump  .  pure  anguish  was  one  thing  ,  but  this  was  a  strop  ,  and  sure  as  hell  was  it  a  tantrum  ready  to  break  out  .

                                      𝒂𝒔 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒃𝒚 𝒋𝒐𝒉𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒏              @kctysha :     "  if  you  act  like  a  child   ,  i'll  treat  you  like  one  .  "                

   "  am  not  -----  "        defeated  and  shy  ,  but  only  because  the  realisation  was  that  this  grown  (  oversized  )  man  was  acting  worse  than  jack  when  they  took  away  his  toys  from  misbehaving  .  here  he  was  acting  a  full  grown  baby  over  simply  getting  denied  simple  pleasures  ;  such  as  a  seat  at  the  saloon  ,  and  the  lemon  sweets  from  the  rations  -----  oh  my  ,  he  was  a  child  .

"  i  don't  need  to  make  a  further  fool  of  myself  ;  but  if  you  patronize  me  i  will  start  rolling  around  in  the  mud  .  "        spoken  through  gritted  teeth  and  clenched  jaw  ,  mocking  himself  more  than  anything  .  the  lack  of  threat  there  made  it  seem  like  a  challenge  instead  .

❛ so that miss grimshaw can pull you by the ear to the nearest wash barrel again ? ❜ she teased with another chuckle . the air was thick from the downpour earlier that morning and the dirt road outside of the shops was still slick and muddy . ❛ should the desire of a mud bath find you there is plenty of opportunity today . ❜ clouds were returning on the horizon .

❛ do you think that the camp will flood ? ❜ she couldn't hide the worry in her voice at the thought that had slipped into her mind . she hated being camped so close to the water . she'd had a nightmare a few nights back that she hadn't yet shaken of the lannaheche swelling its banks and sweeping her away . ❛ are there alligators in that water ? surely there are . . . or some other river monster . ❜ here she was teasing arthur for his childishness when she was perhaps acting a bit childish herself .

❛ oh , and i have something for you , mister morgan . . . ❜ eager to distract herself from her spiraling thoughts yekaterina opened the bag at her side . she dug around for a moment , trying to find it between the bottles of medicine and there ! she pulled out a small bag of hard candies . with a slight flush to her cheeks she opened the bag and passed him a candy .

he was silent, ready to leave her be but left the silence open for her to continue if she wanted . . . he almost didn't expect it but the weak admittance made his attention perk and he looked over at her again. he knew she'd be in a world of hurt the next day, but didn't move to get up just yet. ❛  didn't bite you, or your horse. ❜ he murmured, giving her another long look before putting the cigarette between his lips. he propped his hands on his knees to stand, walking around where he had been sitting and towards the wash bucket. surely no one would mind him snagging one of the tattered cloths from the food wagon. to which he dunked in the bucket. this time of night, the water would be cooler.

❛ oh . ❜ the word stumbled from her lips before she could stop it , the orange glow of the fire hiding a faint flush to her cheeks before she corrected , ❛ thank you , john . ❜ she didn't expect help , and never quite knew how to take it when it was offered . she took the wet cloth from his hand and pressed it to her lip first with a sigh of relief at the cold against her bruised skin .

❛ should i come up with a better story than getting thrown off of my horse ? ❜ she asked quietly , trying not to smile and open the wound again . ❛ maybe that . . . i started a bar fight ? ❜ she didn't drink often , and she fought even less . katya hoped at least that the thought might earn her something close to a laugh or a smile .

Even as he rolls his eyes at her, the tough act recedes somewhat at the mention of trade, a cant of his head dispelling his dark expression into something not quite so standoffish, wolfish to something hound-adjacent, scenting a deal to be struck, stormy gaze softening to a shrewd blue flicker of mild interest as he glances her over. He could just rob her, he has the means, but that wouldn't reflect so charmingly on himself.

❛ i don't care for daisies or pretty rocks , either . ❜ her eyes glanced to the men behind him once more , gaze moving quickly from each man to the next before they settled on their leader once more . ❛ you are hungry , then ? you all look it . i can hunt . ❜ the rabbits here seemed stupid enough to nearly throw themselves underfoot at times during her ride . it should not be difficult to bring at least one down .

“don’t worry, it won’t take long anyway! There’s uh..a shop for- for uh- fabrics? Dresses..damn if I know but I saw women dresses in the shop’s window! Would you like to see that? Might even have lunch there too, I heard the fish food they serve tastes amazing.. besides, it’s not too far, a little bit walking and we’ll be there less than an hour!” Van Horn isn’t that big but it can do for a date place, sides, it got a room for renting and bath house which in Micah’s book it goes under ‘perfect’ title.

❛ we can go to van horn , i need more meat for the pot . ❜ she spoke quietly , folding the apron and placing it in one of the small shelves built into the table . ❛ could we ride to van horn ? ❜ she didn't enjoy the thought of being on her feet if they ran into people who were unfriendly , regardless of who her company was . ❛ let me get some things from my tent and i'll meet you by baylock ? ❜