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In everything give thanks 2018 is just about half way over.  As I move along in this year, I’ve felt compelled to reflect and see just how far I’ve come.   This time last year - I was really sad.  That’s the exact word to describe all of me at the time.  Fresh out of a break up and thoroughly wanting to get in to a new job - I was at the end of my rope.  The two biggest relationships in my life, the one with my ex, and the one with my work, were shattered to a million pieces.  I was at a loss.  Thankfully, I was able to get in to the state of mind to really fix my work situation.  I held on to the only bit of patience that I had left and put it all in my job search.  This paid off 10 fold. The relationship with my Ex was by far a taller mountain to climb.  I was left feeling unwanted and abandoned. I wanted only for him to come back and validate me.  Tell me that he was wrong, I was the one for him, He never should have left, I was the reason the sun rose and set… you get the picture.  Eventually tho, with a lot of prayer and a few convos with said Ex, I realized that he needn’t validate shit about me. If I wasn’t the “one” for him, then quite frankly, he was not even close to being the “one” for me.  It took a lot of pondering, prayer, and self-love to get me to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  It’s so true what they say, you can’t love someone properly if you don’t love yourself.  I learned that I HAD to care about myself and put effort into myself. Fast forward to 2018, and I see all the light.  God gets all the glory.  Let me tell you that prayer works.  It doesn’t matter who it comes from, it matter’s who’s listening.  God is listening at all times.  And His timing is perfect.   Now, I have that new job I prayed and prayed for.  And I have a new guy that treats me like I deserve to be treated. What all of this has taught me thus far, is to never lose faith, stay patient, and trust God’s timing.  God get all of the glory.  All of it.  I am not here without God’s guidance.  I’m so so thankful for his overseeing my life and not giving up on me. With that said, though I may have had a rough landing in to 2018, it’s been nothing but blessings.  I’m so thankful for my days being more good than bad.  And having the perspective that adversity is always around the corner, so enjoy the good times.  And brace yourself for the bad - but remember they don’t last always.

there’s a bull and a matador dueling in the sky. INHALE INHALE - there’s heaven