In the end, I will go on.

Theres nothing more soul crushing in this world than people leaving you out of the loop and then coming to you and describing the awesome time they had when you didnt even know it existed

I need to live by myself and also never talk to anyone ever

Sure do love being ignored for hours after offering genuine support

I wish everything would just stop being hard lately. It seems like it's only getting worse. The lies, the inconvenience, the yelling, the crying, the anxiety, the worry. The burden, the stress, the hurt. I'm just trying my best to stay positive and be bright but it's getting so tiring. I'm tired. I can't get any proper sleep unless I lay for an hour in the darkness and force myself asleep. Meditation doesn't work because my focus is constantly broken, mind wondering to my home problems or to worrying for another friend and whatever is happening there. Am I at fault? Are they becoming depressed? Do they find me unsatisfying? Why does brandon lie to me now? Why is he becoming an actual alcoholic? Why does he steal from my mother and lie to me? I can't read him. I'm too naive. He's gotten me twice now, and once has cost me my ps3. He almost froze to death when we locked him out with all of his clothes in the rain and yet he goes and lies to me, after he stayed home all evening just fine. When I do sleep now I have nightmares. Nightmares about dead or dying animals, monsters, being chased. I just want to rest. Please. I'm begging for just one fucking day where I don't have to hear yelling and arguing. One day where I can talk to my friend without so much anxiety I feel like I'm going to puke. I've been doing my best and I haven't vented any of this to anyone so please can I just have one peaceful day.

Mmmmh would love to like. Not fall into the same pattern every time.

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Ahhhahh man im so upset rn :')

I wonder... if i'm really becoming a better person.. or if I'm just becoming bitter again, but better at handling/hiding it...

Honestly i think im actually he/t//pho/bic like im not even joking??? Being around ci/shets makes me so uncomfortable??

Some new a//lish/a rper: i ship a//lish/a and s////ore /y so hard! Me, bitter, petty, and salty, knowing damn full well every s//ore /y rper is gay af: cackling

Why does this always happen to me. And it always seems to drive me tf out of a fandom

Watchin someone u dislike become super popular in ur community like...mmmmmmmmmmmm.........yall i unfollowed them for a reason. Let me escape. I cant handle this