kate

you know I’ve wrote you thousands of messages, but all of them sound stupid. part of what I wanna tell you is how I miss you EVERYDAY I get reminded of things about you / us / our memories from little things in my day, it still makes me sad & it tears off a piece of my heart every time. It reminds me of how stupid I am / was for not fighting harder for you, for not listening to ur aching heart for what I was doing to you, I know you felt like I betrayed you by doing what I was doing & I know no sorry or apology could fix this but I can’t go another day with this pain in my chest with out me telling you how I still love you & you hold such a big piece of my heart as you did and how you always will. I hope you are living your best fucking life and making memories with your new people and laughing everyday & seeing the new beautiful world in Florida.. I hope you are exploring everyday and doing what you love, I hope you never take things for granted and you hold everything close to your heart, I hope you question everything and you get what you want because you deserve it. You deserve it all lex, all of it.