stories from a try-hard

Nightmares - everybody's got one, and this one is mine

I put the devil in my crosshairs and the bullet went wide

I took my shot but he got away

I know he'll hunt me down someday

I missed my shot at the devil and there's nowhere to hide

He knows my name and he haunts my steps

He'll wear me down till there's nothing left

My soul and my sins and the devil make three

And he's coming, he's coming for me

He's in my dreams and he knows my heart

I feel him reaching from the dark

I got away, but I'll never be free

If he's coming, he's coming for me

And he's coming, he's coming for me

Hell is a pretty little place with nothing to eat

And the devil takes you by the hand and promises meat

He'll chew you up and he'll spit you out

He lifts you up till he lets you drown

You can call his bluff but the house can't be beat

He knows my name and he haunts my steps

He'll wear me down till there's nothing left

My soul and my sins and the devil make three

And he's coming, he's coming for me

He's in my dreams and he knows my heart

I feel him reaching from the dark

I got away, but I'll never be free

If he's coming, he's coming for me

And he's coming, he's coming for me

All I know is this

If you aim at the devil, you'd better not miss

All I know is this

If you aim at the devil, you'd better not miss

If you aim at the devil, you'd better not miss

She used to share my bed, now I’m sleeping on my own

I thought that I’d forgotten how to smile when alone

Eight months later, I’ve remembered no one is a home

I was never made of stone

She isn’t still my lover but I still call her a friend

And we made no empty promises to never love again  

Sometimes a bond needs space to bend

Not every ending is the end

I would’ve given anything to have her by my side

When she left I thought I’d failed before I’d had the chance to try

I thought it was forever when she finally said goodbye 

But changes don't mean that it died

She isn’t still my lover but I still call her a friend

And we made no empty promises to never love again

Sometimes a bond needs space to bend 

Not every ending is the end

Finally I'm moving on

Leaving doesn't mean I'm gone

Erased lines can be redrawn

Setting suns bring a new dawn

She isn’t still my lover but I still call her a friend

And we made no empty promises to never love again

Sometimes a bond unbroken needs space to bend 

Not every ending is the end

Hey, there, it's me

I hope you've been doing alright

How are your parents? Your sister? Your cats, and the weather?

Yeah, me too, I'm doing just fine

Just wanted to call you, to see how you're doing

To tell you I read all your books

I promised myself I'd stop calling

I know how desperate this looks

Hey, there, it's me

Sorry to call you again

I wanted to ask if you had a new girlfriend

Should I admit this is the end?

I've got to be honest, I'm not doing great

I dreamt of you again last night

You were there in my kitchen, making fun of my baking

We danced in the flickering light

The chances you hear this are zero, but those are still odds I would take

Watching you leave was a nightmare, but I still don't want to wake

You've given me so much but I still - I take, and I take, and I wait

Thinking of you is a habit I am trying to break

Thinking of you is a habit I am trying to break

Can you hear me? Find me, remind me

Do you need me? Hold me, show me

Please don't go (please don't go, please don't go)

Promise we'll slow down (promise me)

Please don't go (please don't go, please don't go)

Promise we'll slow down (promise me)

I see you, I know you (I know you)

I don't know the end

I don't know if I'll see you again

Please don't go (please don't go, please don't go)

Promise we'll slow down

(Please don't go, please don't go, promise me, promise me)

(Please don't go, please don't go, promise me, promise me)

I could still see your house in my rearview mirror when I knew that I should have stayed

I could still feel the heat of your goodbye kiss when I knew I couldn’t walk away

I drove around and around on my way out of town, wondering if you’d ever feel the same

But I’ve never been a beggar and I won't start now and my pride will be the one to blame

Would you invite me inside if I showed up at your door, if I begged you, baby, on my knees?

Would you hold me like before, would you give me something more, if I begged you, baby, please? 

No, I’ve never been a beggar and my pride will be the cost but it’s a price that I would kill to pay

So if I showed up at your door and if I offered something more, baby, what - what would you say? 

I can still feel your heartbeat against my skin when I close my eyes and sleep alone

I can still feel the way that you held me down and your laughter rumbled through my bones

I run around and around through my own ghost town just to keep my old fears away 

No, I’ve never been a gambler but I’d go all in to convince you to stay

Would you invite me inside if I showed up at your door, if I begged you, baby, on my knees?

Would you hold me like before, would you give me something more, if I begged you, baby, please? 

No, I’ve never been a beggar and my pride will be the cost but it’s a price that I would kill to pay

So if I showed up at your door and if I offered something more, baby, what - what would you say? 

I knew as soon as I walked out that I was giving in 

Was this the start, the start of something, or was this the end?

You made a beggar out of me and I’d do it again 

Was this the start of everything or was it the end?

Would you let me inside if I told you how I feel, if I told you that my soul was yours?

Would you hold me like before, would you take my heart and more, if I surrendered just to win the war?

No, I’ve never been a beggar but I’d lay down my pride if it meant I’d never sleep alone

So if I showed up at your door and if I offered something more, baby, would you take me as your own? 

Would you take me, baby, as your own?

We swayed in your kitchen in the flickering light You took me by the hand, you held me so tight I think I knew even then that you would be mine And that was just the first time

I sat on your counter watching you work I think I knew even then that this ending would hurt But I didn’t give a damn, figured that was alright And that was just the first night

I’ll keep you like a secret and you’ll break me like a promise You're trying to be careful but I'm trying to be honest We stayed up all night, we crossed every line And that was just the first time

I forgot my own name and I only knew yours You were like a lighthouse, shining from the shore But the look in your eyes, it set me alight And that was just the first night

Wrapped me up on the couch, watching shitty TV And my only conscious thought was, “Oh, lucky me” I think I knew even then that you’d be someone I’d miss And that was just the first kiss

I’ll keep you like a secret and you’ll break me like a promise You're trying to be careful but I'm trying to be honest We stayed up all night, we crossed every damn line And that was just the first time

There were two things that I realized and nothing I could do First, that it’d be easy to fall in love with you Next, that this love, it might be worth the fight I knew that on the first night

I’m not normally a fighter, like to cut my ties and run But I’ve never met a girl standing taller than the sun I’ve always played it safe but this time I’ll walk the line This could be the first time

I have been the dagger and I have been the shield

I still bear the marks of wounds that will not heal

My heart is like a graveyard, my soul a battlefield

I never learned to yield

Can I lay my armor at your feet?

Can I hold you close when you're asleep?

I never though I could be sweet

But with you, I'm in too deep

For you, I'm in too deep

Would you still have me if you knew where I had been?

Would you offer me your hand, again and again?

Be patient with me as I learn to let you in

I don't know where to begin

Can I lay my armor at your feet?

Can I hold you close when you're asleep?

I never though I could be sweet

But with you, I'm in too deep

For you, I'm in too deep

You said, "You will not be a weapon."

I knelt your altar, gave you my confession

Your fingers on my face, I swear that it was heaven

You are my only exception

Can I lay my armor at your feet?

Can I hold you close when you're asleep?

I never though I could be sweet

But with you, I'm in too deep

For you, I'm in too deep