Trans Bi in KC

Well, let me rewind a bit.. About a year or so ago I learned from a guest on the Trans centric podcast Gender Reveal (which is a joke name, btw), that Nonbinary is a Trans identity, and that got me wondering what the identity that I started using meant to ME.. and after a lot of thinking of how I've behaved since I was a kid (some recalling of memories from figuring out I'm Bi and AuDHD), I realized I'm more femme than anything and have actually been masking it my whole life and that I was shoved into masculinity every time I "acted girly" by my family. I've been using Enby/Trans a lot over the last year trying to get a feel for it.. and as a kind of half step while I wait before I can realistically do anything aside from the little things (gifts to myself) and social transitioning.. like the mini heart pin I bought myself over Christmas, and changing my pronouns, social media PFPs/banners etc. I mentioned a 5 - 10 year long To Do list to get my life back together on Bsky at the beginning of the year, and transitioning is on there as a long term goal, and hell, it's one of the big reasons the list exists in the first place, and part of why I've been doing a LOT of reading about things online, setting my goals as a walk back from starting the things to live authentically, all the way back to where I am now, at point 0, like a teenager fresh out of HS, but at 42 (which that's a whole other story).

Of course recent events are part of why I said I said "realistically", and by that I mean like 5 or so years at the least, which gives me some time to try to get to where I CAN do anything, hopefully in the next 10 years. So yeah.. worst time to come out and yeah it's scares the fuck out of me, but I was scared as fuck when I came out as Bisexual in 2020 (cause.. well.. 2020), but yeah there it is. I'm Trans. 🏳️‍⚧️.