Now… this isn’t an easy thing for me. I’m super self-conscious. Usually when I share pics with someone I literally shake in fear. It pushes me more than most can understand. So why do I do it? I LOVE to be pushed. In anything. I love the freeing feeling after. I’ve lived in a place that has tried to sell me short of my real abilities for too long, and now I live to be pushed out of my comfort zone. It’s one of the few things that make me genuinely happy. It may hurt at the time, and there’s a 95% chance of tears and shaking and self hate, but it makes me feel free after I get over myself, and I will never get enough of that feeling so….. Oh jesus. Here goes nothing.
So my chastity belt arrived on Thursday, but because of work I didn’t get to wear it until Friday night. As soon as I walked in from work, I had been instructed to lock up my greedy cunt behind the metal belt. I was somewhere between nervous and extremely fucking excited. A month ago I would never have thought I’d be in chastity, but now here I sit. I’ve been locked for roughly 22-23 hours and I’m so horny that I’m leaking from the side of my belt.
I tried humping and grinding onto things, but my efforts were fruitless. My greedy cunt felt nothing. It was humiliating how desperate and horny feeling nothing made me. I haven’t cum in just under two months and now, and now that I’m locked away…. I feel like I’m about to burst. I need to touch so badly. I need to be able to hump my pillow until I’m mindless again. I just need sensation. *whimpers*
But I love having my cunt denied and locked away behind steel so no matter how much I try to grind or hump it feels nothing. I wore my belt out to lunch with my friends today and I was so embarrassed. The entire time I could feel how wet I was; how much wetter I was getting. And wearing the key on my necklace is the biggest mind fuck of all. I could so easily take it off, but I’m not going to because I like being a good locked ArcOfInfinity :P
