Ok, so I posted a thing on facebook *rolls eyes* heaven forbid why I would do such a thing, right? Well, yeah I forgot my FAMILY are the biggest and nosiest little shits the world has ever known (that’s any family). 

Well anyway, I made a post about how I don’t hold on to the past (ex. past events). WORDS are a different a VERY DIFFERENT story! And that I made a choice, my OWN choice and that a certain someone needs to leave me alone about it. (AKA, my father is still pissed I still talk to my half sister). My full blooded sister just HAD to make a comment that I hold on to the past the MOST, and ‘just saying!’ Oh yeah right, ‘just saying!’ my ass you stupid fucking bitch. Take your own words, RUB THEM IN YOUR FACE and SHOVE THEM DOWN YOUR THROAT. Because YOU ARE ONE of the WORST ones in the family to DWELL/HOLD ON to the PAST. Aside from father, you’re right there with him, just a BIT better, but not by much. 

Do I dwell on the past?! Fuck no. I forget half the shit that goes on anyway, as it is my way of coping. Do I dwell on WORDS that have been said, over and over and over again, or that have a HUGE NEGATIVE effect?! Damn right I fucking do. And I hold a grudge on the WORDS. Because despite the ‘I didn’t mean it’ s I get, I KNOW you did, because I can feel the negativity in the words, and how HONEST they really are. I NEVER get apologies! The only one I ever did, was the WORST fucking one of all. My father saying ‘I’m sorry that’s how you feel about it’. EXCUSE ME?! You’re sorry I FEEL that your words made me WANT TO KILL MYSELF?! Fuck you and your apology.