A Beautiful Mess

I need friends. I have work friends but it not the same I need a person that I can talk to and just hang out with.

Someone talk to me

I’m about to go to therapy for the first time ever. I’m freaking out I know I’m haven Ng an anxiety attack I’m really freaking out.

What’s the matter with me. I suck at life I suck at love and I’m clearly not worth it to anyone. I am a horrible nasty person who say mean nasty thing to the person I’m supposed to love. I suck at this marriage and I’m tired of living this way

I think I should’ve married the person I did. We can barely get along and I’m always blamed for everything. He never talks to me and when he dose it’s about nothing. I’m done. I’m done being the blame because I express my feeling more and I’m done being the blame for spending to much money when he eats out oh most everyday I’m just fucking done

My husband is a fucking dick that say he wants to fix’s our issue but then run away like a pussy when I ask him how he want to fix it. I try and he just hide an avoid everything. I’m so fucking done.

I Hate my life right now. nothing I do is enough but the one person that should help me doesn't. I'm just tired of how fucking stressed I am. All I want is help.