Co ni mire rium?

OPHELIA FONTAINE | lucy griffiths

KATHERYNE “KATE” MILLER / emilie de ravin

favorite odr relationships: 7/∞

Red fox sits among Ravens.

As she muttered, Cedric turned dancing eyes upon her.  “I must say, you’ve a good swing, if perhaps not the aim to back it up,” he joshed.  “Not to mention, I content myself with the knowledge that I must be the only suitor whom you’ve bodily attacked in the past week.  That thought shall buoy me in the moments when we must be parted.”

As she declared him the most incorrigible man she knew, Cedric grinned broadly.  “You must not know many men,” he joked.  “I know a right few who’d take it rather badly if you attempted to bludgeon them to death for offering to walk with you.  I dare say, I’ve been quite placid about the whole affair.  Not to mention,” he wiggled brows at her.  “What other men might attempt to touch you.  I’m quite a gentleman, especially when you consider I am, in fact, a rebellious ruffian who lives in the woods,” he added, cheekily.

As she wondered aloud why she’d befriended him, he chuckled wryly.  “I dare say you didn’t have much choice in the matter.  Between my reckless impulsivity and my dogged dedication to your person, you’d be hard pressed to shake me off.  Speaking of which,” he continued.  “Have I asked you to be my bride in the past twelve hours?  I fear I’ve been terribly lax.  You know, as my wife, you’d be entitled to a full half of the leaves I use as bedding,” he teased.  “You would be quite at liberty to appoint the cave I call home however you wished.  Really, I can’t imagine what part of living in a cave in the woods isn’t completely attractive to a woman who owns and runs her own business and home,” he added with a wink.

Cedric excelled at making a joke of most anything - including his own hopes and dreams.  If he were honest with her, he had been desperately in love with Kate for as long as he could remember.  He lived for her smiles, breathed for her laughter…He ached to tell her, to confess to her how dearly he wished to give her all that was good, to make her happy.  But declaring such things was a befuddling mess and, besides, how could he do any of that?  He lived on what stolen venison he hunted and killed illegally upon the Queenswood.  He lived in the woods with a rag tag group of other men - all outlaws.  Granted, now that they had a Dragon and Rider on their side, things appeared more hopeful, but the war had yet to even begin. 

How could he promise her a future when he had none yet to give?  Besides, Cedric wasn’t so stupid as he may have at times appeared.  He knew good and well that her heart was otherwise engaged, but it was an easy enough thing to put to the side, while it was all fun and games.  So, instead of out-and-out stating his feelings, he played at it.  There was no commitment, no possibility of real rejection and, in the off-chance that one of these days she took him at his word and promised herself to him, she’d make him the happiest man in the world.  Where was the harm in that?

Cedric was mock aghast.  Gaping at her in feigned horror, he shook his head.  “How can you think so?” he demanded.  “Why, I come all this way to assist you and you accuse me of stealing?  I can’t imagine why!  You’ve no proof that those are the queen’s deer I eat!  Whatever makes you think that I am not an extraordinarily wealthy landowner who hunts his own deer and simply chooses to live off the land with a band of his friends outside the law for no real reason at all?  I could simply be charmingly unorthodox!  Or right mad,” he added, lightly.  “Perhaps you ought to consider that before you reject my offer out of hand,” he added, lightly.  “How should you like to be mistress of all this?” he added, gesturing grandly at nothing with a cheeky grin.

For a moment, he fell quiet as she linked arms with him, glancing down at her arm nestled into the crook of his and suppressing the kind of longing smile he always seemed to be fighting off.  He liked to think, sometimes, that they might grow old together, surrounded by their children, and walk this path together each day, like a pilgrimage to this past they were even now making…but these were all silly thoughts - things that may never be. 

Cedric arched one brow down at her for a moment before looking away again with a bright smile.  “Well, I shouldn’t wish to be too predictable.  You might start to expect me, were I to behave more conventionally, and I believe the key to being a successful bandit is the aura of mystery.”  He chuckled softly, before adding.  “Of course, in your case, the only valuable I mean to make off with is your heart.  Are you quite ready to be swept off your feet, my friend?”

Yet as soon as Cedric once again asked her to be his wife, Kate could not help the laughter that poured from her mouth. "Ah yes, I was wondering if you would set a new record for yourself of waiting to ask me." 

They'd been playing this game for years now. Cedric always loved to tease and joke that perhaps she should simply marry him in order to drive away the droves of young men in the village that came with sighs and soft words to her bakery every day. Perhaps it didn't help that Kate had such a soft heart of her own that she was never quite adept at turning them away--too fearful of breaking their spirits for wooing someone more suitable--but to marry Cedric? Her dearest friend, who certainly must care for someone else much moreso than they cared for each other? It had always been a lark.

After all, hadn't she seen him time after time, flirting with every young maid that crossed his path? All mirth and gaiety, gifting them with those bright smiles which, in her youth, Kate had mistaken for something Cedric only ever offered to her and her alone. 

She had learned better since then.

"Though I will admit that the offer of half a bed of leaves and an entire cave full of moss and damp and strange, terrible creatures that will certainly devour me in my sleep is a most tempting offer." Kate raised an eyebrow at Cedric as she mimicked the soft grins she was so used to seeing grace his lips. "Much better than your last of a patch of dirt to sleep upon and the open sky. You've offered a roof this time in the very least, which is preferable to any wife-to-be. And yet, it breaks my dear heart to say this, but I cannot marry you, my love." The girl pouted exaggeratedly, reaching up to place a hand upon his cheek and give a ragged sigh as if her world truly was falling apart.

"For how could I ever let a lord of the forests marry so far below your station? I am merely a peasant girl, peddling her bread to any who need nourishment, while you command such grand oaks and mighty stags." She copied Cedric's grand gesture, attempting to encompass the entire forest with a sweep of her arm. "Someone as grand as yourself, my liege, deserves to be wed to a princess, or perhaps even a nymph of the wood! What a fancy that would be!" Yet even as Kate laughed, for a moment she fell quiet, allowing her thumb to gently trace the curve of Cedric's jaw. "And truly, what use would you have for a timid wife who sits at home and bakes bread and pies for the rest of her days, never wishing to venture beyond the village square? You have adventure and spirit running through every piece of you, Cedric Boleyn. I would not make you a fit companion. But I appreciate the sentiment, all the same."

Kate's hand dropped heavily from Cedric's face, her gaze following it to look at the ground, nudging a pebble with the toe of her boot. She was not sure where such a speech had come from. Usually she so easily laughed away his silly mockeries of confessions of love. Perhaps it was her worries of the Queen's soldiers having been sighted so close to the village. There had been no raids as of yet, but still Kate felt a flash of fear at every whisper of their coming. For she could no sooner deliver a message to the Rebellion than save them all herself before they could be set upon.

And that was something Katheryne could never abide.

"If anything, my dear Cedric, you shall never be predictable a day in your life." She said finally after he covered the awkward silence with more of his ramblings. (A trait Kate often found herself very thankful he possessed.) "Whether or not you appeared upon my doorstep at the same time every morning, I'm sure you would find new and inventive ways to do so each time, in order to properly frighten me out of my boots." A sly grin slid over Kate's lips, raising an eyebrow at Cedric and brushing hair over her shoulder. "Perhaps even in a vain attempt to sweep me off my feet and steal my heart away, as you have so eloquently confessed to desiring? A fool task, indeed, but I cannot fault you for trying."

Kate still laughed brightly though, rolling her eyes at Cedric when he began to muse at what the others would think of her showing preferential treatment to him. (Though I'm sure if asked, they would all agree that such a fate has already come to pass.) "Come to my senses, what nonsense. Perhaps half the camp falls over themselves at your feat, my dear Cedric, but it is merely because they know so little of your true nature. If they came to my cause it would merely be to protect an innocent young woman from your devilish ways." She winked up at the boy, a wide grin spreading over her soft lips. Yet, as Cedric continued, the expression softened, something like concern falling over her features as she paused in their walk to turn to Cedric. There was something in his tone that suggested this was a very serious topic for him behind all of the mirth and laughter.

And Cedric taking a moment to be serious was certainly something to mark one's attention.

"You know you shall always be my champion in all things, Cedric, don't you?" Kate said quietly, pressing a hand over his that was still unladen with her basket. "Ever since we were children, you've been so kind and generous a friend to me, I could not imagine a better man to wish for as my protector."

Though perhaps she did not take quite the same meaning to his question that Cedric did, it was true that there was no one she could foresee protecting and caring for her as well as Cedric ever had. After all, who else had wiped her tears when her parents had been taken by the queen to meet untimely ends, knowing full well that by coming to her he was risking his own head? Who else had always known just how to make her laugh with even just the smallest of glances? Who else was always at her side the moment she needed him? Truly, Katheryne knew she had been smiled upon by The Creator the moment that Cedric Boleyn's path crossed her own. She only hoped he was not insinuating that their lives should part at any moment... A strange ache spread through Kate's chest at the thought, though she quickly pushed it away for its strangeness. Nonsense, Kate, he would not run so easily from his men. Don't be silly. She thought to herself before allowing her fingers to squeeze gently over his. He would never leave them, just as he certainly would never leave you. 

"Others may wish to garner my favor, but why should I heed them when I've such a determined companion in yourself, hmm?" Kate teased, trying to lighten the moment in any way possible. It was hard to see Cedric even the slightest bit out of his usual self. "You've collected how many of my ribbons over the years now? Certainly enough to decorate a hundred Maypoles. No one could even hope to match you in the quest for the status of my champion. Never fear that you shall ever lose your place in my heart." With that, Kate pushed herself up onto her toes, brushing a gentle kiss upon Cedric's cheek.

I think he’d require the use of Arya’s (Roran’s dragon) blood, which will weaken her and basically take away the Resistance’s one advantage, so he can draw off the dragon’s life force in addition to the blood sacrifices he makes, which would mean she has to choose between the entire Resistance and Cedric (idk what she’d choose - I’m cool with Cedric dying if she doesn’t choose him, so don’t worry on that count).  Then, if she agrees, a la Mirri Maz Duur, he sends her out of the cave and does his thang and yeah.  (I okayed all of this with Lizzy, if you want to move forward with it, btw.)

She'd choose Cedric.

Without a second of thought, or any moment of changing her mind, Kate would choose Cedric in a heartbeat.

Because yes, she believes in the resistance and she believes in their cause with everything in her, but in the end--Kate is not as brave as she would like to be when it comes to those she loves, and there's no one she loves more than Cedric, even if she doesn't always realize/admit it.

So she'd curse herself later for her selfishness, and realize with a horror that she'd doomed them all in some way...

I should def ask Lizzy about how Dezod’s magic works bc tbqh I’ve just kinda been winging it like idek but - if you ever read Eragon - I think it might work like that?????  Like ~true name magic and lifeforce energy????????  But I really don’t know hahahah esp bc there’s light magic vs dark and obv Dezod is dark magic all the way (tho I think ~back in the day, he probs practiced light magic but that was a thousand years ago and before he literally got burned alive whoops back when ~irony~ he was part of a resistance and was actually fighting for something meaningful ~CUE CACKLING~  WOW I GET SO EASILY DISRAILED TALKING ABOUT DEZOD HOW DOES ONE STAY ON TOPIC)  Anyway!  On my to-do: ask Lizzy about Aragothi magic

HAHAHAH her acknowledgement of Cedric NOOOOOOOOO  Dezod be like, “Do not presume to know my heart,” bc tbqh she struck a nerve bc his heart is a sad chorus of “EVERYONE I EVER LOVED IS DEAD” laksdjfkljDJFKDAS bc he chose rage over hope and that’s how he became Dezod

BECAUSE SHE LOVES HIM.

LIKE A LOT. SHE JUST DIDN'T KNOW IT UNTIL THEN.

also omg if Cedric did come back with a curse, u kno Kate would be marching right back to Dezod like: "......change him back. i said, cHANGE HIM BACK. NOT DEAD. JUST NOT CURSED. I'LL PAY ANOTHER PRICE IF I HAVE TO." bc aw hell no is she gonna let Cedric murder his best friend. Unacceptable. Cedric deserves only good things and if that means a price on her own head, so be it.

"It is growing dark. Let me see you safely to the road." Kate and Rose would normally travel back to the village together, but tonight Kate had stayed with them later than usual. Alaric knew that if she should be spotted with a known outlaw that it would be worse for her than if she was alone, but he knew how to make himself scarce in an instant if need be: it was one of the reasons he had survived for so long.

If Cedric had been about, he would have volunteered to do this task himself, but he had been showing Char and his nephew the lay of the land. Kate had wanted to be there when they returned with something hot, but she was finished and Alaric did not think it was a good idea for her to stay here so late.

And yet, of all the people in the camp, perhaps it was Alaric who could best appeal to Kate's sensible side. It was indeed growing dark and soon enough she would have barely any light to get home by. There was still dough to make and set to rise for the morning's baking. After all, the queen's soldiers would be coming by for the extra pies and cakes they'd ordered for the queen's ball. 

It would raise quite a few questions that Kate did not want asked if she weren't to be home when they called.

Still, as the two wandered back towards the road, Kate couldn't help but gaze back after where Cedric had gone off with the two new recruits. He'd lifted a hand in farewell, that grin of his shining bright in the mid-afternoon sun. A soft smile touched Kate's own lips as she remembered how she'd shouted after him that he'd better be back in time for supper, for she wouldn't save him anything otherwise. (She'd merely been teasing of course. There were still three earthen bowls nestling in the coals of the cookfire, keeping stew warm for the boys. Kate wasn't quite that cruel.)

A blush crept over her face gently when Alaric quietly caught her looking. Was it that obvious that she was worried? "Of course. You're right. I just..." Kate let out a soft sigh and glanced back over her shoulder once more as she gathered her cloak and pulled up her hood. "It does not keep me from wishing they'd returned a few hours earlier. Cedric hardly ever misses supper, it's quite unlike him." She played gently with the laces on her dress, shifting her basket from one arm to the other before pausing in their walk and looking up at Alaric.

"Are you sure we shouldn't send someone off to go look for them? What if one of them is hurt and they can't carry him back to camp? Cedric is more than capable, sure, but Charles is a large man. I am not sure Cedric and Roran could manage on their own. Or what if they were spotted by some of the queen's men and were captured? They could be on their way towards the castle and their deaths at this very moment!"

But UGH I think talking it out with Kate will be v good for him. :DD

HAHAH omg. I mean, I don’t think that Alaric doesn’ t know that she has flaws, just like the rest of them. And he knows she isn’t perfect (but she def is the closest thing to perfection the resistance has haha). 

THEM AS MAMA/PAPA REBEL MAKES MY LIFE TBH. Also, I feel like they make everyone feel so at home there and just alkdjfalkjflaksjflaksdjflaksjdf 

OH MY GOSH YES. I mean, he was an outlaw back then, but he was always looking out for people who Rowena especially harmed and when he heard about her situation, he’d def go to her. And depending how it all went down, he might have even tried to help her parents, but in the end failed? Also, so much bonding time, b/c his father was killed by the Queen and I feel like his mom probs died in childbirth and basically he knows what it’s like to loose parents and UGH. 

UGH BUT YES THEY ARE SO CLOSE UGHHH. I feel like Kate was probs the third member to join the resistance and basically she’s been with them for such a long time and THEY ARE DEF FAMILY. ;DDD

But omg, yes, Mama/Papa Rebels is my lifeblood. I totally want them to call each other that teasingly sometimes. xD Mostly because I can a thousand percent see Kate being like: "Now, now, have you asked your father if you can go hunting this late????" to some random rebel with her hands on her hips. "You haven't even TOUCHED your vegetables! Your father would be so ashamed!" "...I haven't got a father...?" "AND WHO DO YOU THINK ALARIC IS??!?!?! AFTER HE TAKES SUCH GOOD CARE OF YOU?!?!?! HOW DARE YOU, YOUNG MAN. GO TO YOUR TENT. NO PIES FOR YOU TONIGHT."

aka: Kate takes no shit from anyone who seems like they're taking Alaric's kindness and leadership for granted. EVEN CEDRIC. ;DD

But yeah, I'm not sure EXACTLY how it went down yet, but I think maybe Kate's parents were making rumblings against Rowena, possibly holding meetings for people to ~unwind and gripe about the changes in a safe environment with warmth and food and shelter they may not have had for weeks. But obvi Rowena would catch word and I think someone was dispatched to "take care" of them. Possibly under the excuse of dark witchcraft or something else obviously cooked up, but still bad enough that Rowena could easily get away with the charges?

I'm sure Alaric then could have tried to deny the claims or whatever, but Rowena could have wanted to make an example of Kate's parents, so it'd be too late. 

Alaric as basically the big brother she ALWAYS WANTED BUT NEVER HAD. <33333 I LOVE IT. SUPER CLOSE AND LOOKING OUT FOR EACH OTHER AND KATE LIKE: "I'm sorry that one woman you loved was so horrible to you. Perhaps she will learn the error of her ways once this is all over. I'm sure she was just frightened. It happens to the best of us." ALL PATTING HIS CHEEK AND GIVING HIM ANOTHER BOWL OF STEW/MUG OF ALE BC OBVI BEER AND FOOD MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER.

THESE TWO WILL BE SO ADORABLE OKAY. Like, I feel like Kate is probably the most ~maternal person he’s ever been close with and I think he’ll probably consider her to be like a surrogate ~mother/older sister that he never had AND NOTHING IS ALLOWED TO HAPPEN TO HER. <3333

But oh man. Kate would love to hear that. :DDDDDDD I know we talked too about Kate/Alaric as Mom/Dad of the camp, so I TOTALLY can see Roran being like: "NOTHING'S GONNA HAAAARRRMMMM YOOOOUU. NOT WHILE IIII'MMM AROOUUNNDD."  And Kate would just laugh a little and hug Roran like: "Thank u my little knight in shining armor. I feel much better knowing you're looking out for me." and then give him a cookie or something and send him off to look after the horses or whatevs. xD (TAKE NOTE, CEDRIC. KATE IS V. GOOD WITH KIDS. ;DDD)

Also she would SO BE LIKE “WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!?!? YOU DO SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT?!?” if she ever voices her feelings to Guin about that. Like, I think that she has a more important role in the resistance than she even knows, but more on that later when I actually get around to commenting w/ Alaric. 

Hhaha, Guin is alllll about the secret cakes. <3333 

And oh Guin!!! I feel like perhaps Guin is like Kate's ~confidante?? Just because she's so pleased to finally have another girl to talk to about things who is so similar in temperament to herself?? Mostly bc Kate always enjoys new friends, but then at the same time Guin is someone she feels she can ask for advice about things she wouldn't ask per say Alaric or Cedric about?

Esp. regarding things about boys. And of course Guin TOTALLY knows about Lysander! I think Kate doesn't quite advertise it bc like it says in her bio, she's never actually um... TALKED to Lysander much? They've met in passing a few times, I think, but Kate was always very shy about it, and probably was v quiet and stammery and like: "YOUR POEMS ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS I HAVE EVER READ IN MY LIFE AND YOU ARE SO ELEGANT AND WONDERFUL, PLEASE DO TELL ME YOUR VISIONS ON EVERYTHING IN LIFE!!!!!!!!"

So probably comes to Guin like: "what do I do to try and be a normal person around him?? Even though he barely acknowledges that I'm a real person, but I must be able to do ~something!! DD:"

And ugh, oh man, the whole Cedric thing. Bc obvi Cedric is like her absolute best friend in the entire world, she's known him forever and cannot imagine her life without him. But she's so in love with the man she reads on the page and is so certain that they would have a lovely life together as well. It's just... actually speaking to him that's the issue.

Whereas Cedric she'll speak to with no issues at all, obviously gr8 at teasing and laughing with him, super comfortable... But she's convinced she's not in love with him. (bc y'know, you totally go SELL YOUR SOUL TO A DARK SORCERER for people you're not MADLY IN LOVE WITH, right?!? THAT'S TOTALLY HOW THAT WORKS. not. c'mon bb u love him just accept it.) But idk, I think she'd appreciate Guin being like: "Well if all else fails............." and looking pointedly at Cedric. Bc Kate would be lying if she said she hadn't ever considered it. She just decided against it that one time and has never really seriously considered it....

SO IT MAKES ME V SAD THAT KATE DOESN’T FEEL LIKE SHE DOES MUCH B/C NO ONE THINKS THAT OKAY. 

So, the resistance started w/ just Alaric and Cedric, and I think b/c of that Cedric is def Alaric’s right hand when it comes to well, everything. But I still think he probs looks to Kate for advice sometimes. Like I think he sees that w/ everyone else that the ends are gonna justify the means to some extent, but Kate is still kinda their moral center (I mean, until she makes a deal with the devil for Cedric’s life EXCUSE ME WHILE I CRY OVER HERE), but I think there’s part of Alaric that sometimes struggles with what the right thing is, vs the thing that will get them what they want. And idk with the tough choices, he def will always see what Kate has to say, I think. 

Also, I feel like they are kinda like the unofficial ~parental figures of the resistance, especially since like everyone has a kinda rocky family life, if they have one at all and I feel like they are the unofficial heads of this family, if that makes sense ??? 

Also, also I do think taht Kate LEGIT keeps them alive. Like she makes sure they eat and probs is the one who is like NO YOU HAVE TO STAY BEHIND THAT IS NOT JUST A STRACH YOU NEED REST DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT when someone gets injured. ;D

Uuugghh. this is so beautiful. i just...

I think it's just that Kate doesn't think of what she does for them as anything special??? Because they're her friends, and this is how she treats her friends, she takes care of them, so she doesn't see it as an extra special thing like how others are spies or warriors???

BUT OH MAN. ALARIC ASKING KATE FOR ADVICE. <333 I can totally see her just chilling with him, ladling out stew or whatever and quietly discussing things. Probably with Kate being like: "All I know is bread, Alaric. I don't know anything about politics or warfare. But these are the options available to you and these are the costs of each option..." etc etc. 

She'd blush so hardcore and make so many flailing hand gestures if Kate was called the moral center tho. haha. Be like: "But!!! I've made bad decisions in my life, too! I don't want you to think that I know any more than the rest of you what the right thing is!!!!" But still would give her opinion because she and Alaric are friends and she will always give advice/whatever help she can give to her friends whenever they ask.

(and omg, don't even get me started on Kate and her dark dealings with Dezod. actual gross sobbing. i just. i can't. i rlly can't. everything hurts.)

OMG. KATE AND ALARIC AS MAMA AND PAPA REBELS. I'M DYING. THAT TOTALLY MAKES SENSE. PEOPLE WANTING SOMETHING, ASK KATE ABOUT IT: "OH, I DON'T KNOW... ASK ALARIC." AND THEN GO TO ALARIC AND HE'S LIKE: "HMMM... ASK KATE." OH LAWD. KATE HAVING TO HELP WITH LIKE ~CONSEQUENCES TO THINGS. OR TELLING EVERYONE TO CLEAN UP BEFORE SUMMER, SITTING WITH ALARIC ALL THE TIME AND CHATTING WITH HIM. (How much u bet that people tease Cedric about that constantly, btw? "Well, well, looks like you're too late, boy. Practically wife to Alaric already.") 

man and through all this rambling, i'm pretty positive that Alaric and Kate are v close?? Even tho he's much older than her, I wonder if maybe he was around when her parents were killed by Rowena about seven/eight years ago and helped her?? Bc obvi that would make her feel EXTREMELY close to him, probably feels she too can confide in him, sees him as a brother and cares deeply for him. Perhaps became the family she no longer had????? IDK I'M JUST ALL OF A SUDDEN HAVING A LOT OF ALARIC AND KATE FEELINGS. 

also omg yes. She totally does that allll the time. I feel like she's perfected the perfect "mom look" that is like: "excuse u, what do u think u r doing? Guin and I just barely stopped you from bleeding profusely, and u think ur going off to a fight? SIT YOUR BUTT BACK DOWN, THERE, MISTER." Stares them down until they sit, then shoves bread and some stew at them like: "that's right. now eat and rest until you're better."

I FEEL SO BAD FOR CEDRIC BC I RLLY RLLY WANT THIS NOW.

And ugh, Kate just squirming under his stare as he mocks her, but still stares right back up at him like "You wouldn't know love if it fell in your lap, do not mock me for mine!!!"

WHICH WOULD BE HORRIBLE AND SAD BC U KNO THAT'D PROBABLY BE THE FIRST TIME KATE SAYS SHE LOVES CEDRIC AND IT'S DEFENDING HIM TO DEZOD AUUGHHH. (tho now idk how magic is gonna work here yet, but oh man think if he like ~took her heart or something??? Like in the kinda OUAT way where she wouldn't die, just feelings muted or something???? idk idk. I can just see Dezod being like: "Well, if you think love will save him, I'll just take yours!")

AND THEN HER FACE WHEN SHE COMES BACK AND CEDRIC'S OKAY IS PROBS LIKE:

BUT THEN SHE CAN'T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT, CAN'T DO ANYTHING. UGHHH.