#kateric

Though tbh I’m sure Cedric thought she’d continue to think he was joking until the end of their days, I’m thinking it’s at some point during the rebellion, maybe after Kate has her scare with the guards burning down her bakery, that he says it to her to get her to calm down as she’s stressing/freaking out about what to do now that she can’t be of any use to the rebels/to the villagers who had looked after her. Cedric just starts saying “Kate, look at me. Kate… Kate!” and takes her face in his hands to make her look at him and gives her that brilliant smile and asks her to marry him for the millionth time. And she doesn’t know why, but for some reason, maybe something in his eyes, it’s the first time she believes he mans it. So she says yes. And I bet Cedric doesn’t believe her at first. Doesn’t think he heard her right. But Kate probably swallows and puts her hands over his and says yes again and then aLL THE SMOOCHES PROBS NGL.

i said in my tags, he’d say something like 'you’ll always have me, kate.  no matter what happens, know that.’

and

laurenplayspeople wondered, CEDRIC COMING TO SAVE KATE AFTER ROWENA/HER SOLDIERS/WHOMEVER COMES AND BURNS DOWN HER COTTAGE/BAKERY/HOME/ETC BC THEY HEARD SHE WAS HELPING THE REBELLION. I CRY.

AND YOU KNOW THAT KATE IS PROBABLY HALF-SINGED HERSELF FROM TRYING TO SAVE ~TRINKETS THAT WERE MEMORIES OF HER PARENTS, PROBABLY HAD TO BE FORCIBLY DRAGGED BACK FROM THE FLAMES, TRYING TO SALVAGE WHATEVER SHE COULD BEFORE EVERYTHING WAS DESTROYED.

TBQH, IF CEDRIC TOOK HIS EYES OFF HER FOR TWO SECONDS SHE’D PROBABLY DASH BACK INSIDE.

i said: I CRY BC YOU KNOW HE’S HOLDING HER TIGHT, ONE HAND BEHIND HER HEAD TANGLING WITH HER CURLS, AND LOOKING DEEP INTO HER EYES AND GOING, “Look at me, Kate, Kate, look at me.  There’s only one thing left worth risking EVERYTHING to save.  You’re the only rememberance your parents ever treasured.  You’re all that matters, now.”

lauren: I’M NOT CRYING, YOU’RE CRYING. THIS IS TERRIBLE. EVERYTHING HURTS. BC YOU KNOW SHE’D JUST HAVE THIS ~LOOK OF DEVASTATION ON HER FACE AS SHE LOOKS BACK UP AT CEDRIC, TEARS IN HER EYES, AND SAYS IN A VERY QUIET VOICE: “I am all that matters? How can you say such things? Without my bakery… how i will be able to make enough bread to feed everyone?? Your camp will have no bread to keep them sustained when supplies run low, there are children in the village who will starve without what little scraps I could give them. What will they do now if I cannot feed them?” BEFORE SHE JUST BREAKS DOWN AND LEANS INTO CEDRIC, SOBBING UNCONTROLLABLY BECAUSE IT IS ALL GONE AND SHE CAN’T GET IT BACK. 

lauren: I KNOW RIGHT?! I’m sitting here in bed crying a lil because it is sO CEDRIC AFTER PULLING KATE FROM THE FLAMES, I JUST. “Please, come with me.” i’m killing myself slowly here. Probably says it too, bc he knows that if he doesn’t, Kate’ll just stay here, sifting through the ashes of her entire life that’s been burnt to the ground, trying to find any little piece of her past that is left, most likely to later be set upon by whatever soldiers were lying in wait for her to do just that. And she’ll be so shell-shocked still, so weary from crying until she had nothing left to give that she’d just go with them. Probably become bait for the Rebellion. (bc lord in heaven above knows that Cedric would most likely come after her.) And honestly…. This would be the one time she would listen, though. The one time she would go with Cedric, because even though she doesn’t realize it, for whatever reason, she knows that being with Cedric always makes her feel safe and protected and cared for.uGH.

#ALSO IMAGINING THAT DESPITE KNOWING HOW IMPROPER IT WOULD LOOK/SEEM #KATE QUIETLY ASKING CEDRIC IF SHE COULD SLEEP NEXT TO HIM IN HIS TENT THAT FIRST NIGHT #JUST BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T WANT TO BE ALONE AND WANTS THE COMFORT OF A WARM BODY NEARBY #BUT STILL TRIES VERY HARD TO KEEP HER CRYING V QUIET WHEN SHE CAN'T HELP HERSELF FROM THINKING ABOUT HOW SHE WILL BE LETTING DOWN SO MANY #*PEOPLE THAT DEPENDED ON HER FOR SUSTENANCE

me: NO BUT LAUREN HE ABSOLUTELY WOULD  He lost his family and his home as well, and he knows what that’s like and how it impacts a person and he knows the one thing that brought him back was making the Resistance his family and he wants that for her, too.  He would lay down his life in a second for her and he would absolutely come for her if she were taken, but he’d never willing allow her to fall into enemy hands, either.  So he’d take her back and care for her and help her rebuild her life, however he can, bc she’s his life, too. EVERYTHING HURTS LAKSDJFKLJSAD

lauren: aUUUUUUUUGHHHH.BABIES.I JUST.Because I think something like that would be such a wake-up call for Kate, too? Like I think she’s going to be very much in the dark about her true feelings about Cedric until he’s dying and she has to rush to Dezod bc she’s at the end of her rope and cannot imagine a life without him.Especially if something like that happened where she no longer had her bakery or her home–having nothing by Cedric and the Rebellion and the camp they all share. Losing him would be like losing the one piece of her past and her life she had left, and Kate finally realizing that she couldn’t bear it for so many reasons, not the least of which is just how much she truly loves him, and i’M CRYING. NOTHING IS OKAY.But ugh, those hours right after when she lets him lead her away. Cedric probably has to half drag, half carry her through the woods because she’s still so shell-shocked she can barely move, all wide-eyed and barely-there breaths, fire still bright in her mind. And once they get back to the camp, I can see her just sticking very close to Cedric bc his presence is such a comfort. Perhaps even more so than Guin or Alaric, even despite them also being good friends of hers. AND STILL NOT OVER THE IDEA THAT SHE WOULD V TIMIDLY ASK IF SHE COULD SLEEP IN CEDRIC’S TENT WITH HIM LIKE: “I–I know it’s not very seemly, and I’m not certain Alaric would approve, but I…. oh, I just really don’t wish to be alone right now, Cedric, and I would be very grateful.” ALL WRINGING HER HANDS AND LOOKING AT THE GROUND, STILL SO KNOCKED OUT OF SYNC BY THE EVENTS OF THE DAY.AND HER TRYING SO HARD NOT TO CRY WHEN THE NIGHT COMES AND LEAVES HER SILENT WITH HER TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW SHE CAN NO LONGER HELP THE CAUSE OR HER PEOPLE, FOR WHAT USE IS SHE IF SHE CANNOT FEED THE ONES SHE LOVES??? AND HER JUST LYING THERE, HANDS PRESSED TIGHTLY OVER HER MOUTH AS SHE TRIES TO STIFLE HER SOBS, BUT CAN’T HELP BUT TO PRESS HER FOREHEAD AGAINST CEDRIC’S BACK BECAUSE KNOWING HE IS THERE IS THE ONE SMALL THREAD STILL KEEPING HER TOGETHER.

and she said this (maybe she wears it after he dies or smth idk if this was in response to smth or just smth she wanted kate to have but 100% he wOULD <3

kaTE nO.

CEDRIC’S MOM’S RING.

FOR KATE.

AND HE CARRIES IT AROUND.

JUST WAITING.

I CAN’T HANDLE THIS WHILE I’M ALSO LISTENING TO A BUNCH OF INDIE-FOLKSY LOVE SONGS.

lauren: You always know what you’re doing” she said muzzily. “You’re important with your green eyes looking at me like I mean something. It’s okay that you have better things to do. It’s enough that I get you sometimes. Once in a while. I know I’m lucky for that, to get you just a little. —Denna, The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss

#JUST HAD TO SHARE THIS SLICE OF THE MOMENT I'M READING #BC IT FEELS LIKE SOMETHING KATE WOULD SAY TO CEDRIC #ONLY REALLY THO IF FOR SOME REASON SHE WAS DELIRIOUS OR DRUNK OR JUST NOT QUITE IN HER FULL MIND #BUT IT'S WHAT'S IN HER HEAD AND IT'S SAD AND BEAUTIFUL AND I JUST #DENNA AND KVOTHE REMIND ME SO MUCH OF THEM I CAN'T HANDLE IT

uGH.I can just see it so clearly too. Kate sick with the fever or dozily full of some fruit wine that one of the Rebellion snuck away from one of the nearby Lords. Curling up in a small pocket of warmth against Cedric’s side (something she does much more often than she’d ever admit–it’s comfortable and warm and feels like a place that was made for her, whether she’ll let herself think about why or not) and just mumbling half-mad under her breath that she understands. He doesn’t like her like that, he’s important and doing important things and has no time to think of her, but she’s content with having him sometimes. Sometimes is better than not at all. and just slowly falling asleep or shivering into that fitful sleep of the sick and mending, holding onto Cedric’s hand tightly–because after all, she has to hoard those sometimes whenever she can.

me: !!!!!! And you know he’s absolutely stunned & overwhelmed that she thinks this & tells her how important she is - how he couldn’t do any of it w/o her, none of them could - and AsdhncDBJKFFAC also laughing bc the local lord is Dmitrei

lauren: uGHHHHHHHHHH.And Kate just half-smiling in that droopy way of the half-asleep, squeezing his hand a little and nodding with eyes closed. Thanks him for saying these things to make her feel better. That it helps a little in the in-between times when she doesn’t get to have him, when he’s off being important and saving them all from reckless tyranny. But she knows what she is, who she is. She’s a simple Miller’s girl, grinding wheat and making bread. Just one lucky enough to get to brush greatness every once in a while.aND OMG HOW DID I FORGET. THAT’S BEAUTIFUL. (Just imagining the Rebellion randomly sneaking things away from Dmitrei is the best. His fACE.)

#I S2G MY OWN OTP FEELS HAVE JUST DEVOLVED INTO KATE HAVE ~SUPER SECRET SUBCONSCIOUS FEELS FOR CEDRIC #WHICH I MEAN I GUESS I KINDA HAD ALWAYS PLANNED ON??? #I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT IT TO BE ANYTHING SHE'D EVER VOICE EVEN IN A ROUNDABOUT WAY #BUT SHE KEEPS TALKING ABOUT IT WHEN DISTRACTED OR IN VERY SIDEWAYS MANNERS OR TO HERSELF IN HER HEAD #UGH #BABIES