Better

so in the past month I’ve lost my first ten pounds.. let me tell you it was definitely harder then I wanted to admit. It was a struggle at first because I literally purged all the “bad” food out of my system and it was a shock to my body (not exactly the worst but not the best idea. it’s definitely a good idea to wean your body off it not cold turkey.). I didn't eat anything that was loaded with sugars or carbs. I completely cut out pasta, with that I learned that was what food I was eating that made me feel bloated and uncomfortable. I ate so many veggies and fruit. I actually took 2 servings of veggies to work with me everyday with homemade veggie dip. I munched on that and boiled eggs and cheese( I just cant give up my cheese, I tried and failed).  the weather didn't make it easy to take my dogs on the morning walks like I originally planned. of course that's  NEPA for you when you literally get hit with all four seasons in one day. BUT I did exercise inside 3/4 times a week like I planned. some days I didn't do as much as I wanted to but I still forced myself to do it. Now lets see what next month brings me..

HOLY MOTHER OF ALL THINGS GOOD, in 7 days I’m already down 5 pounds. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. don't get me wrong I haven't been able to take the dogs out as much as I would like to due to the roads being completely covered in anti skid and the ground being wet. I cant let my babies paws get hurt. I've been using the weights a little more then I want too but hey it is it is. anyways, indoor cardio conists of running up and down the stairs at my house 10 times, planks (which are the devil) and weight training. A random thing I read about is how barley is a better grain for you then rice & quinoa.. 

I seriously didn't think giving up carbs would be this hard.. I knew it would be hard just not THIS hard. My will power is totally being tested with this one especially when I get stressed out. BUT the only positive about being stressed is I now know where to take that stress out.. the weights. every night so far I have been using my weights *go me*. I weighed myself, even though I said I wasn't going to do that until Wednesday but I needed to see if anything was happening. so my 2 liters of water a day and more fruit and veggies, no carbs and more proteins are working in my favor already..

(FYI there is and will be some cursing in these posts)

Here’s my new year new me spew... I’m getting married in October 2020, I have to try on wedding dresses in 8 months.... Let’s face it white isn't a forgiving color which means 2019 is going to be my bitch (sorry for the word). I have to do this for me, I just have to at this point.. I figured since I started losing weight slowly (and I mean slowly like 2-3 a month and not consistently) I should actually do more things about it.. Like oh say cutting that delicious pasta& other carbs out of my diet, not eating after 8 at night, cut ginger-ale & all out shit out of my diet. I’ve been doing that slowly but starting tomorrow 1/6/2019 I will be cutting all of those things mentioned above out of my life. It’s more veggies, proteins & fruit for me from here on out. I’m going to make myself a healthier version of me, the best me I can be. I want to like the person I see in the mirror when I try these wedding dresses on, I don't want to automatically go to my flaws or pissed if I cant try the dress on in my size.. Let’s just say any kind of dress shopping sucks..

every morning I am going to wake up earlier, take my two dogs Piper and Bella for a walk/jog around the block at least 2 times. (if it’s raining outside like it has been for the past 6 months I will do cardio inside) 

every other evening I am going to weight train for a least 60 minutes.

Friday will be my weigh in days, I’m going to keep track of my weight loss on here.( I.E pounds lost)

I’m even going to set up a goal & reward for myself to keep going that way I cant get off track.