(Matty Healy + teen!daughter!r)
warnings: angst (weâre back!), shitty dad Matty for a min, uncle George yay, yelling, just sad, reader is turning 13
a/n: what other title did you think I would choose bffr
You had been talking about it for months. There was no way he could forget. Right? Heâs your dad. The only parent youâve ever had. Itâs always been just the two of you, side by side through everything. He knows you better than anyone else in the world. So why was this nagging doubt creeping into your mind this morning?
He always made it a big deal. A special breakfast, a couple of thoughtful presents to kick off the dayâbut this time, there was nothing. No sounds of sizzling bacon, no smell of pancakes. Just silence. You searched every corner of the houseâhis bedroom, the bathroom, the kitchen, even the backyard and guest roomâbut he was nowhere to be found. It wasnât until you glanced outside that you noticed his car was missing. A knot tightened in your stomach as you reached for your phone and sent him a text, hoping for an explanation that would ease the growing sense of disappointment.
At first, you convinced yourself he was playing one of his usual tricks. It was exactly the kind of thing your dad would do. Let you sweat a little, only to jump out from somewhere unexpected with a goofy grin and a surprise waiting behind his back. You smiled at the thought, almost hearing his laughter in your head. That had to be it. It was all part of some elaborate birthday prank.
You didnât reply to his text at first. The message sat unread on your phone, the screen dimming after a few seconds, like it wasnât important. You brushed it off, continued getting ready, telling yourself this was just part of the game. The anticipation kept you goingâmaybe heâd burst through the door any minute with balloons and confetti, trying to catch you off guard. You could already picture his laugh, the way heâd raise his eyebrows like, âGotcha!â
But with each passing minute, doubt began to creep in. You found yourself staring at the phone longer than you'd like to admit, uncertain how to respond. A part of you wanted to play along, to convince yourself it was all just a joke. But there was another, quieter part of youâa part that you didnât want to acknowledgeâthat began to whisper the truth you were trying to ignore.
There was no prank, no surprise waiting for you. The sinking feeling in your stomach told you what you didnât want to admit. He forgot your birthday. And no matter how much you tried to pretend otherwise, that truth weighed heavier with each moment of silence.
School had always been your escape, a place where you could drown out everything else by burying yourself in classwork and conversation. Today was no different. You told yourself if you kept busy enough, the hurt gnawing at you would fade into the background. It almost worked, until your friends surprised you at lunch.
They gathered around with smiles, handing you a cupcake, complete with a crooked candle, and a small gift theyâd all chipped in on. You forced a smile, doing your best to swallow the lump in your throat. You werenât about to ruin the moment for them. But your best friend wasnât fooled for a second.
âSo⌠you gonna tell me whatâs really going on?â she asked, snapping you out of your daze.
You looked up quickly, startled. âWhat? What do you mean?â you replied, plastering on a grin. But it was thin, stretched too tight, and you knew she could see right through it.
She raised an eyebrow, unimpressed. âYou walked into school looking like you just got hit by a car. Youâve been staring at your phone every five seconds, and I can tell youâre about two seconds away from crying. So, whatâs up?â
The act fell apart. You swallowed hard and stared down at the half-eaten cupcake, your voice barely above a whisper. âHe forgot my birthday.â
She tilted her head, confused for a moment. âWho did?â
You met her eyes, feeling a wave of shame and frustration crash over you. âMy dad. He⌠he forgot my birthday.â
Her face fell. The disbelief in her eyes was instant, but not entirely surprising. âWhat?! No way,â she blurted, shaking her head.
You shifted uncomfortably in your seat, the desire to move on from the topic growing stronger by the second. âItâs fine. Itâs not that big of a dealââ
âItâs a huge deal, Y/n! Heâs your dad!â She almost shouted, her voice filled with a mix of outrage and disbelief.
You mumbled, but the bitterness in your voice was unmistakable. âYeah, well⌠he hasnât really been acting like one lately.â
Her face softened instantly, guilt flashing in her eyes for snapping at you. She leaned in, her tone gentler now. âTalk to me. Whatâs going on?â
You sighed, rubbing the back of your neck, trying to figure out the words. âI dunno, maybe heâs just busy or dealing with his own stuff. Itâs not a big dealââ
âBut?â she pushed, refusing to let you brush it aside.
You hesitated before continuing. âItâs like heâs⌠here, but heâs not here, you know? Heâs around, but we donât talk anymore. We donât even see each other, really. Itâs like heâs some random roommate I found online. I only see him when we happen to cross paths, maybe at dinner or when Iâm heading out, but even then, itâs like Iâm invisible. He doesnât even acknowledge me.â
Your friendâs face fell, and she reached out, resting her hand on yours. âThatâs not right, love. You know that, donât you?â Her voice was quiet but firm. âMaybe you should talk to him. Tell him how youâre feeling.â
You sighed heavily, feeling the weight of her suggestion. âYeah, maybe,â you muttered, but deep down, you wondered if heâd even listen.
Adam found Matty slouched in a corner, next to the coffee machine and a spread of half-eaten snacks, aimlessly scrolling through his phone. The exhaustion was evident in the dark circles under his eyes. Honestly, all he wanted to do was be home, sitting on the couch with you, watching some mindless TV, shutting the world out for a few hours. But there was still work to be done. The faster he finished this album and sent it off, the sooner he could finally focus on what mattered mostâyou.
âIâm surprised youâre even here,â Adam said, breaking the silence as he poured himself a cup of coffee.
Matty didnât bother looking up from his phone. âWhy wouldnât I be?â
Adam gave him a sideways glance. âI just figured youâd be with Y/n.â
Matty frowned. âWhy?â
Adam shifted, uneasy, and took a sip of coffee. âWell, you know... thirteen is kind of a big deal.â
Thirteen. The number didnât seem to register for Matty right away. Adam watched as the realization crept over Mattyâs face like a slow, chilling wave.
âWhat do youââ Mattyâs voice faltered, and then he froze. He stared blankly at Adam, piecing it together. The sinking dread filled the room. Adam could tell from the way Mattyâs expression darkened that he had forgotten.
âDonât tell me...â Adam muttered, but it was too late.
Matty bolted upright, shoving his phone into his pocket and grabbing his bag without a word. The room seemed to spin around him as he stormed out, not bothering to explain himself to the others. He needed to get to you. Now.Â
As he sped through the streets, his mind raced. How could he have forgotten? You, his world, his everything. The one person who had completely shifted the course of his life thirteen years ago, making him into something more than just himself. He had thought about stopping somewhereâbuying a cake, maybe some balloonsâbut the clock was ticking, and every second felt like another failure. He couldnât waste any more time.
Guilt tightened in his chest with every mile he drove. You deserved more than a last-minute apology and a quick fix. You deserved his time, his presence, his loveâespecially on a day that should have been about you.
But now he was on his way, and he didnât know how to make it up to you. He just hoped he wasnât too late.
You were curled up on the couch, sinking deeper into the cushions, letting the sweetness of the cupcakes numb the ache inside. Your friend had baked them for youâher attempt to make the day a little less unbearableâand you didnât care about the calories or the mess you were making as frosting smeared across your fingers. It was a brief distraction from the disappointment gnawing at your chest.
Then you heard itâthe keys jingling in the lock, the door creaking open. Your heart tightened. Without a second thought, you reached for the remote and turned off the TV.
âY/n!â Your dadâs voice echoed down the hallway as he rushed in, breathless, his footsteps quick, desperate. He froze when he spotted you on the couch, eyes widening as if the sight of you caught him off guard.
âIâm sorry,â he started, his voice cracking, âIâm so sââ
He stopped mid-sentence as you stood, the movement sharp and deliberate. You clenched your jaw, refusing to meet his gaze as you gathered the crumpled cupcake wrappers and empty water bottles scattered around you. The silence between you thickened, heavy with everything unsaid.
You walked to the trash bin, each step deliberate, your frustration palpable in the way your shoulders tensed. His eyes followed you, pleading, but you refused to acknowledge him.
âWhere are you going?â His voice cracked, barely holding back the desperation.
âTo bed,â you answered, your tone cold, distant. Still, you wouldnât look at him.
He glanced at his phone, confusion flickering across his face. âItâs only 7:30?â he questioned, as if the time mattered in the slightest.
âI donât care.â Your voice was soft, almost too soft, like a balloon deflating after holding in too much air. âI just need to be away from you.â
Matty took a step closer, his hands trembling as he reached out, though he stopped short of touching you. âCâmon, baby. Please donât do this,â he pleaded, his voice rough with guilt. âTalk to me. Let me fix this. I can make it right.â
The crack in your heart finally shattered. âI donât care anymore.â The words tumbled out, jagged and raw, each syllable heavy with the weight of years of pent-up frustration. âIâve let the stupid shit youâve done slide my entire life! And Iâm just⌠Iâm so tired. Iâm tired of you disappointing me over and over.â
He looked at you, his face crumpling as if he didnât know what to say, as if he hadnât realized just how deep the hurt ran. âIâm sorry,â he whispered, his voice barely holding together. âIâm so sorry.â
You let out a bitter laugh, one that held no humor. âI know you are. Youâre always sorry, but Iâm tired of hearing it. I donât care anymore.â Words hitting a little harsher.
He took another step toward you, his voice shaking. âPlease, Y/n. Just give me a chance to fix this. Let me make it right, Iâll do anything.â
âNo.â You shook your head, your resolve hardening. âYou canât fix this. You canât even remember my fucking birthday birthday.â
His mouth opened, but no words came. The silence stretched, painful, until finally, something inside him snapped. His face twisted, frustration bubbling to the surface. âI wouldnât have to try to remember if you werenât here!â The words flew out, sharp and ugly, hanging in the air like a slap. His eyes widened, regret flashing through them the moment they left his lips. âI didnât mean that,â he stammered, panic setting in. âY/n, Iââ
But it was too late. The truth of his confession hit you like a punch to the gut, knocking the wind out of you. For a moment, you stood there, frozen, feeling the sting of his words sink in. Then, without another word, you turned on your heel and stomped up the stairs, each step heavier than the last.
âY/n!â he called after you, his voice breaking with desperation. âPlease, Y/n, wait! Donât go!â
You didnât stop. You couldnât. You slammed your bedroom door with a force that rattled the house, and for a brief moment, the entire world went silent. Downstairs, Matty stood frozen in the middle of the room, his head hanging low, his body sagging under the weight of his mistake.
Matty wasn't sure what to do next. He paced the living room for a while, his steps quick and restless, before collapsing onto the couch. The same spot where you had sat for hours, fighting tears and the crushing weight of disappointment. He stared at the scattered crumbs and empty cupcake wrappers left behind, his chest tightening as he imagined you curled up there, waiting for him, hoping for something he failed to give.
The knock at the door broke through his spiraling thoughts.
He rose sluggishly, his movements heavy with dread. It was lateâtoo late for a neighbor or a delivery. As he opened the door, the cold air rushed in, carrying with it the sight of George standing on the porch. His coat was large, the collar flipped up to shield him from the wind, and his hands were stuffed deep into his pockets.
âHey,â George greeted, his voice low and careful, though his sharp eyes betrayed his concern.
Matty blinked in surprise. âWhat are you doing here?â
Georgeâs expression hardened. âBubs called. She didnât tell you?â
Before Matty could answer, he heard the hurried sound of footsteps behind him. You swept past him without so much as a glance, your shoulders stiff, your chin lifted in quiet defiance.
âHi, George,â you murmured, leaning up to press a quick kiss to his cheek. Your voice was clipped, your movements rushed, as if staying in the house a moment longer would suffocate you. âIâll be in the car.â
Matty turned to watch as you walked away, your silhouette disappearing into the darkness. The slam of the car door reverberated through the silence.
âShit,â he muttered, running a hand through his already disheveled hair.
George stepped inside, his boots thudding against the wooden floor. He shrugged off his coat but didnât bother to hang it, instead crossing his arms and pinning Matty with a pointed look. âWhat happened, mate? She wouldnât tell me anything, just that I needed to pick her up.â
Matty hesitated, his eyes darting toward the empty couch before finally meeting Georgeâs gaze. âI said somethingâŚI said something really bad.â
Georgeâs brows shot up. âGo on.â
Mattyâs voice cracked as he admitted, âI forgot her birthday.â
âIâm sorryâwhat?â Georgeâs tone was sharp, his disbelief cutting through the room like a knife.
Matty winced. âI left this morning and went to the studio with Adam. My mind was on recording, and Iââ
âDonât you dare finish that sentence,â George interrupted, his voice low and dangerous. âThatâs not an excuse to forget your only childâs thirteenth birthday.â
âI know!â Matty snapped, his frustration with himself boiling over. âI know, okay? I screwed up. But I talked to her, and I tried toââ
âOh, this should be good,â George interjected with a bitter laugh. âLet me guess. You made it worse.â
Matty let out a defeated sigh. âShe was crying. I told her I could fix it, that Iâd do anything to make it right, and she told me I couldnât even remember her birthday. And thatâs whenâŚâ
George raised a brow, his patience clearly thinning. âWhen what?â
Matty swallowed hard, his throat dry. âThatâs when I said, âWell, I wouldnât have to remember if you werenât here.ââ
The silence that followed was deafening. George stared at him, his jaw tightening, his eyes blazing with anger and disbelief. âYou are a fucking idiot,â he said finally, his voice calm but dripping with contempt. âYou know that?â
âNo, I donât think you do,â George shot back. âBecause if you did, you wouldnât have let her walk out of here feeling like that.â
Mattyâs shoulders sagged. âWhat do I do?â
âYou want a step-by-step guide on how to not be a shitty dad?â Georgeâs sarcasm was biting, but when Matty didnât respond, he softened, his tone shifting to something more serious. âHereâs whatâs going to happen. Sheâs coming home with me. Sheâs going to cry into my arms, like she always does when Iâm cleaning up after your screw-ups. Meanwhile, youâre going to sit here, think long and hard about what you said, and figure out how to make this right.â
Matty nodded weakly. âOkay.â
George stepped back toward the door but paused, turning to face Matty one last time. âAnd Matty? If you ever, ever make her feel like that again, I wonât just clean up your messâIâll make damn sure you know what it feels like to be left behind.â
The car ride to Georgeâs house was quiet, the only sounds coming from the soft hum of the engine and the occasional sniffle you tried to suppress. George didnât push you to talk. He knew better than to force words out of you when you were like this. Instead, he kept one hand on the steering wheel and the other resting on the gear shift, his presence steady and grounding.
When you arrived, George parked in the driveway and turned off the car, glancing over at you. âYou hungry?â he asked softly, his voice breaking the silence.
You shook your head, staring out the window. The weight of the day pressed against your chest, and food was the last thing on your mind.
âOkay,â he said, not pushing the issue. âCome on, then.â
Inside, the warmth of the house enveloped you, a stark contrast to the cold night outside. George flicked on a lamp in the living room, casting a soft glow across the room filled with mismatched furniture and framed photos. It felt safe here, like a refuge from everything waiting outside.
You dropped onto the couch, pulling your knees to your chest. George disappeared into the kitchen for a moment and returned with two mugs of hot chocolate. He set one on the coffee table in front of you and settled into the armchair across from you, cradling his own mug between his hands.
âWant to tell me what happened?â he asked, his tone gentle but firm.
You hesitated, biting your lip as your gaze dropped to the mug in front of you. The steam rose in lazy swirls, and you watched it as though it held the answers you couldnât find.
âItâs not just the birthday thing,â you said finally, your voice barely above a whisper.
George nodded, not interrupting.
âItâs everything,â you continued, your words spilling out faster now. âItâs like⌠I donât even know if he really wants me here. Half the time, heâs so busy with his own life, and I feel like Iâm just in the way. Like Iâm some obligation he didnât ask for.â
George set his mug down and leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. âListen to me, kid,â he said, his voice steady. âMatty is a lot of thingsâmost of them a pain in the assâbut he loves you. Heâs just⌠not great at showing it sometimes.â
You scoffed, wiping at your eyes with the sleeve of your hoodie. âHe told me he wouldnât have to remember my birthday if I wasnât here.â
George winced, his jaw tightening. âYeah, that was a shitty thing to say. No excuses for that.â
You looked up at him, your eyes filled with hurt. âDo you think he means it?â
âNo,â George said without hesitation. âI know he doesnât. Mattyâs an idiot, but heâs not heartless. Heâs just scared, and when heâs scared, he says things he doesnât mean. Heâs trying, in his own messy way, but that doesnât mean you have to forgive him right now.â
You nodded slowly, the lump in your throat making it hard to speak.
George moved to sit beside you on the couch, wrapping an arm around your shoulders. âYouâre allowed to be mad, Y/n. Youâre allowed to feel hurt. But youâre not allowed to think, even for one second, that you donât belong here, because you do. You belong with him, and he knows it, even if heâs too dumb to show it the right way.â
You leaned into him, the warmth of his embrace and the steadiness of his presence easing some of the tension in your chest. âThanks, George,â you murmured.
âAnytime, kiddo.â He pressed a kiss to the top of your head.
The next morning arrived sooner than you had wanted it to. You were curled up on Georgeâs couch, a blanket draped over your legs and a mug of lukewarm hot chocolate in your hands. The sitcom on the TV had long since faded into background noise, your focus lost somewhere between the fraying edges of the blanket and the storm of emotions churning in your chest.
George walked into the room, pausing just inside the doorway. His expression was cautious, his hands shoved into the pockets of his jeans. You could tell something was up before he even opened his mouth.
âYour father is here,â he said, his voice soft but laced with something that sounded like reluctant hope.
You didnât look up. âIs he now?â
George shifted his weight, pulling one hand free to scratch the back of his neck. âHe wants to talk to you.â
He sighed, moving to sit on the arm of the couch. âMaybe itâll be good forââ
âStop fixing his mistakes.â Your voice was sharper now, laced with frustration and an undercurrent of exhaustion. âThis is what always happens. Dad makes a mistake, I end up crying, and you or one of the guys come in and fix his problem for him.â
âItâs not a problem. You are not a problem.â Georgeâs voice was steady but firm, like he was trying to will you into believing it.
âThatâs not what I said.â
âItâs what you were thinking,â he countered. âAm I wrong?â
You looked away, the lump in your throat making it impossible to respond.
âWhatever,â you muttered eventually, pulling the blanket tighter around yourself.
âFine,â George said with a sigh, standing. âIâm sending him in.â
âGeorgeeee,â you whined, your voice cracking slightly. But he was already walking away, his footsteps retreating down the hall.
A few moments later, your father appeared in the doorway, looking uncertain and uncharacteristically nervous. His hair was a mess, his shirt wrinkled, and his hands were stuffed into his jacket pockets like he didnât trust himself to let them hang freely.
âHi, baby girl,â he said softly, his voice tentative. âI came to talk.â
You didnât look at him. âI donât want to talk.â
âCan you listen at least?â he asked, stepping into the room.
âWhatever,â you replied, your tone flat and dismissive.
Matty hesitated for a beat before sitting down on the edge of the coffee table, facing you. His knees brushed against the edge of the couch, but you didnât pull away.
âI didnât mean what I said,â he began, his voice thick with regret.
âThen why did you say it?â You finally looked at him, your eyes sharp and accusing.
âI wasâŚangry,â he admitted, his shoulders sagging. âI was trying to defend myself, and I made things worse. Like I always do.â
Matty ran a hand through his hair, letting out a shaky breath. âI made you a cakeâŚâ he said after a moment, a faint, self-deprecating smile tugging at his lips. âGeorge told me to do it. To repent for my sins.â
You rolled your eyes, the corner of your mouth twitching in the ghost of a smile. âSo heâs fixing your problems for you again?â
âItâs not a problemâyouâre not a problemââ he said quickly, his voice rising slightly in desperation.
âYou sure made it sound like I was last night,â you shot back, your voice trembling with hurt.
âIâm sorry,â he said, his voice dropping to a whisper.
âYouâre just sorry for admitting it,â you said, your gaze boring into his.
âThat I was a mistake. That you didnât want me.â
Mattyâs eyes widened, and he shook his head vehemently. âYou are not a mistake, my love,â he said, his voice breaking. âYou are my whole world.â
âThen how could you forget my birthday?â
His face crumpled, and he looked down at his hands. âI donât want to give an excuse,â he said after a long pause. âOne, because I donât think youâll believe me, and two, because itâs not good enough. I can, however, beg for forgiveness for the rest of my life, and tell you how sorry I am.â
You stared at him, your chest tight and your throat burning with unshed tears. He looked so small, sitting there with his head bowed and his shoulders hunched.
âI donât know if I can forgive you,â you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.
âThatâs okay,â Matty said, looking up at you. His eyes were red-rimmed, his expression raw and vulnerable. âTake all the time you need. Just⌠let me try to be better. Let me prove to you that I can be better.â
The silence stretched between you, heavy and filled with things neither of you knew how to say. Finally, you nodded, a small, hesitant movement that felt like a crack in the wall youâd built around yourself.
Mattyâs shoulders sagged with relief, and he managed a small, tentative smile. âThank you, baby girl,â he said softly.
You didnât respond, but when he reached out to gently squeeze your hand, you didnât pull away.
âI got you something.â He whispered. He reached into the large jacket pocket, pulling out a small box, unmistakingly a jewelry box.
You perked up a little, adjusting yourself to sit up. He spoke softly, âI was gonna wait till Christmas for you to get this but, seems like a good time now.â
You let out a quiet scoff, âYou planned Christmas already presents but not a birthday one?â He just jokingly hung his head in defeat which made you smile.
Taking the box, you slowly took the lid off, showcasing a silver necklace. It had your initial hanging from the chain, right next to a little charm with an âMâ on it, matching the one with your letter. Right above each of those was two small gems which you recognized as your respective birthstones.
You nodded and smiled softly, looking up to meet his gaze. âThank you.â
He pulled you into a side hug, pressing a kiss to your forehead. âHappy Birthday, love.â