HONOR IN THE HUNT

𝑹𝒆𝒆𝒔𝒆. 30𝒔. 𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆𝒅, 𝒕𝒊𝒓𝒆𝒅, 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒔𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒍𝒔𝒆. 𝑪𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒄𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒑𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒓 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝑺𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅. 𝑷𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒎𝒖𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒔 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒈𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒇𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒐𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒈𝒏𝒊𝒛𝒆 𝒂 𝒔𝒐𝒇𝒕𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒌.

I did stress I'm not trying to get anyone fired (lie, the higher manager needs to fucking go) and that I'm not trying to grind and axe and that I DO sincerely wish despite how upsetting she was for me that my boss lady has a kinder, less stressful work environment (true). Because for as fucked up as she's had me like. She's 65 and she just went through cancer and again, I do think she's got an undiagnosed cognitive decline issue going on. I don't want to see someone like that tossed out on their ass; I know her being threatened with being fired is WHY she keeps having meltdowns.

I wish we could have met under different circumstances because I think in a different environment as just low level coworkers we could have gotten along fine. Despite it all I wish her the best.

I don't want to though! I want to stay home until I know what my job situation is. I cannot fully express the level of fear that is just. Simmering in my body right now.