Here and There

If I tell you I need you, do not take it lightly. I do everything I can to never have to depend on anyone, to never show weakness. and if I say I that I need you it means I am trusting you to catch me if I fall.

There are some things about myself I can't explain to anyone. There are some things I don't understand at all.

when haruki murakami said  “Why do people have to be this lonely? What’s the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?”

No, she would not tell anyone that everything was slowly changing… That she had put away her smile like someone who finally switches off the light and settles down to sleep. No human beings could now be permitted to enter her inner world and merge therein.

"And I lost long hours of sleep..." she sadly breathes, then said, "...for someone who never even thought of me."

I tell myself I am searching for something. But more and more, it feels like I am wandering, waiting for something to happen to me, something that will change everything, something that my whole life has been leading up to.

And tonight you’ll probably fall asleep without thinking of me. Not knowing my whole day was filled with you again. My thoughts are about you, the rest is all fading away.

“I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it — to be fed so much love I couldn’t take any more. Just once.”

I’m not very good at putting my feelings into words. That’s why people misunderstand me.

Say it with me:

I always wanted to be somewhere else, I don’t know why.

I’ve got a bad case of the 3:00 am guilts - you know, when you lie in bed awake and replay all those things you didn’t do right? Because, as we all know, nothing solves insomnia like a nice warm glass of regret, depression and self-loathing.