My Teeth Hurt From Biting

And I'm not a greedy person

Yet I can't help but feel like I ask too much

That I need too much

I can't

Having so much love in my heart is a wonderful thing I was told

I was always told to dream

It's amazing up until I'm in my room late at night clutching my chest whimpering like the mutt I am

I am consumed by an overwhelming loneliness

I stare at the ceiling as I long for something I can't name

I worry that this longing will hurt me forever

I put on a mask and pretend it doesn’t bother me but it does

It does…

I’m scared I’ll remember

Where do I store all this heartache?

I don’t fear being close

I fear standing before you emotionally raw

And still I cannot escape what you did to me

“I’ve moved on”

But then why is it that you haunt every night of mine

When does it stop?

When do I stop feeling your hands on my body?

When do I get my friends back?

When do I get my time back?

Why is it you get to go on like nothing happened

Maybe I shouldn’t have said anything

And my life would’ve gone on the same

I would’ve carried this pain either way

Why did you have to lie?