stay or run away

hi guys haha goodluck to my new followers expecting to see more art when in reality i liveblog my mental breakdowns and post art once every halley comet passes .... see u all in 2030

im so tired of art... or creating... or existing in general. i want to participate in the world, but i always end up getting carried away and drown under other people's voices. im so tired of being. i really dont enjoy anything anymore haha.. really wish i could disappear forever. the world would go on and i was never here.

im so tired. im really tired. i dont find joy in the things that made me most happy anymore, its like my daily life is only filled with looking for distractions for myself. and im so tired of art man... im so tired of it. its what i have been living for all my life and it doesnt spark joy in me anymore. i am tired of trying and grasping at nothing. what the hell am i doing... so hollow.