KantoGamer

i feel so guilty for this but i really just want an easy life and i always have. like i hate discomfort i hate striving i hate constantly trying i don’t have much ambition i don’t like it when things are hard. it never built my character it actually just gave me more problems on top of the pre-existing ones. i want very badly for it to feel simple and light and comfortable

My notes app on my phone and computer are filled to the brim with things I will absolutely never action in anyway. But I like that procrastinating in this way at least feels productive. It’s like a lie that I know is a lie but doesn’t feel like it

having a hard time focusing today. i've also had a hard time focusing for the previous 15 or so years leading up to now but this post is about today.

I never got over anything. I miss everyone and everything. nostalgia and grief kill me every day. oh and I also love going on walks.

there’s nothing wrong with me plus i don’t have any wants or needs plus i don’t feel or think at all

emotionally retreating from everyone to focus on getting worse

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

truly never getting over the greatest loss streaming services caused: the disappearance of DVD special features. behind the scenes, bloopers, deleted scenes, commentaries, I will never forget you, I will never stop missing you.