[Akuneko Translations] Berrien Cliane Advice Q&A Login Story
“Even though I chose this path, but I’ve been worried whether “if I had really made the right choice?””
[On a certain day, I consulted with Berrien about my problem.]
“Even though I chose this path, but I’ve been worried whether “if I had really made the right choice?””
Berrien: Hm…I could understand that feeling..
Even when I thought I made the best decision at the time…I felt the pain stinging within…
Walking on a long, dreary path…where you couldn’t make out the front or the back…
This kind of unstable feeling made it hard to take another step.
…I have experienced it many times until now.
You have been through a lot, haven’t you, Arujisama…thank you very much for sharing your troubles with me.
To lighten your heart…please allow me to say a few words about this.
…come to think of it, just like what I had said before…I have held these similar worries for many years…
Even though this doesn’t seem persuasive…maybe it’s just a self reassurance…
But even so, it would be my honour if you could please listen to me.
Arujisama had said, “Even though I chose this path, but I’ve been worried whether “if I had really made the right choice?””, is that right?
But, I think…it’s a proof that Arujisama is living your life to the fullest.
Directly facing your life…
Walking step-by-step, while pondering and continuing your path…
I respect your strength from the bottom of my heart.
…the worrisome choices that would sometimes flashed in your head…are serious decisions your past self had made.
If that’s the case…I would affirm that decision.
From what I’ve known you deeply, observing your lifestyle closely…I believe that must have been the right choice.
That’s why, no matter what struggles or pain you have encountered…please don’t regret the decisions you have made.
Please don’t blame your past self.
…The me in the past has prioritized Beren over my demonized companions.
I told myself over and over, “this is for the best…”
…and then, after a long period of time and a great number of sacrifices…Beren woke up.
Even so, I do not know if my decision is correct or not.
No matter how the butlers acknowledged my decisions…
I still cannot agree…with the decision that “abandoning my companions” was right…
This is a dilemma only for the ones who made the decision.
I apologize…we were supposed to talk about your troubles, but I started talking with this heavy subject…
…While it seems incoherent, but I must conclude what I had just said…
…This means that the person who made the decision will not be able to lose the troubling fog inside their mind.
That’s why…there’s no way we could lose this anxious feeling.
But what we could do is to change how we face it…how about this?
You don’t have to face this alone…
If Arujisama feels worried…then please allow me to carry your troubles and choices.
No matter what you choose…I will affirm you.
Your life, your decisions, your thoughts…
Every part…I will support you with all my heart.
Whenever you feel in pain…please do talk with me anytime.
“It’s alright, you didn’t make the wrong decision.”
Please allow me to be closer to your heart.
