kaleez

the PT might have seen Akechi break down, but they would not know the Akechi who threw a glove to the boy he planned to kill. the world might have seen the myriad faces of Ren, but only Akechi knew under the mask someone who would not let go of their justice. i see Akechi's trip to LeBlanc on 2/2 as an indication that while he believes in Ren's morals, he also knows Ren could very well cave to his own feelings - only possible when they have developed a bond. why else would he make the trip despite refusing to hang out, beside meta reasons, if only to make sure that Ren wouldn't cave ?

to what extent would you do for the sake of your justice ? would you sacrifice the world to save who can't be saved, or would you take away everyone's happiness so they can be free ? only Akechi truly understood what Ren could do, because that was literally his whole life.

Ren lost everything to save a person. then he risked everything to save the world, once again. and then, for the third time, he stood to lose everything again. that is his, and also Akechi's, justice (the parallel of Akechi's three choices - his mother, the thieves, and himself).

What's even more interesting is that to be loved, to be cared for, to be needed, is something that Akechi craved all his life. And that's what Ren's hesitation is finally offering to him. Ren hesitates because he cares about Akechi, he loves him, in his entierty, with his crimes, flaws and pains. By hesitating, Ren shows the greatest display of affection and consideration Akechi could have ever asked for. He's hesitating to throw reality itself by the window for that guy, goddamn it !

But when facing this, when facing what he craved for so long, Akechi refuses it. Because now, more than love, Akechi needs freedom. No matter the cost. Perhaps that demonstration of love is too late too, like everything in their relationship — He's too unredeemable, he doesn't deserve to be offered such level of devotion. Perhaps he doesn't trust that this could be genuine too, since he perceives it as pity. It's too late, because Akechi now functions like it's him against the world. He needs freedom, he needs to have his own fate in his hands for once — Even if that means rejecting what he craved until now.

NOT a temper tantrum

Does NOT have a goal

Can happen with or without people around

Makes an autistic person vulnerable

Does NOT want to hurt anyone

Is NOT intentional

Is the result of some sort of overload

stage 2 of liking media: haha remember when blorbo bleepus did that thing that was so funny

stage 3 of liking media: huh this one song is kind of blorbo bleepus… if you think about this other song is also kind of blorbo bleepus

stage 4 of liking media: blorbo bleepus is really interesting… here’s a sensible analysis post

stage 5 of liking media: FUCK. THE CHARACTER. THE CHARACTER IM HAVING A CHARACTER ATTACK

stage 6 of liking media: well let’s see what ao3 has to offer!

stage 7 of liking media: everything goes on my character playlist. this song with no lyrics is about blorbo bleepus exploding a building and looking really cool. if this lyric was an entirely different sentence it would fit perfectly

Just because the universe is ending, doesn't mean we need to delay the 9th annual Kubera Fanfest!

Fanfest will be held from August 24 to August 30. As always, its time to suggest the prompts that you want to make fic, art, or whatever for!

The suggestions survey will be open until 11:59 pm PST on July 11. After the survey closes, another survey for voting on the top 7 promps will open. Make sure your wanted prompts are up for the vote!

Any prompts that are too specific to a few characters, will not be included as a prompt candidate in the final voting form!

Screenshot Sunday. vn wip :)

My usual survey software went up from about £160 per year to over £4,000 per year so you're gonna have to bear with me.

This is just a silly side-survey of no import so just don't do it if you don't like it.