kahlil

Ive worked so fucking hard and long and nothing has worked im miserable.

Dont be a stupid fucking artist like me get a real job and career.

I sit in a room everyday and just make/think/listen to music everyday. It’s incredibly lonely but atleast I can separate myself from the world and make things I think are important. No one ever talks about how lonely it is to be an artist. I find myself feeling like everything is fleeting not only emotions but relationships even preconceived notions of myself.

niggas see honesty and vulnerability as weakness but it’s isn’t really like that. My feelings and experiences actually only mean something to me if I don’t get out it’ll kill me. Read an article about depression and dementia once it was kinda wild.

I forgot I had a place to hide. Many days I feel overwhelmed not good enough the only reprieve I have is sleep I open my eyes everyday and feel a big grief looming over my head and anger that I sit still with everyday money and success don’t cover up loneliness and how deafeningly loud it is sometimes.