In The Doldrums

Your love grew around me like vines And flowers sprouted from my heart One by one the petals fell But it wasn’t until you left The last one went down And I knew you loved me not

There are so few people given us to love. I want to tell my daughters this, that each time you fall in love it is important, even at nineteen. Especially at nineteen. And if you can, at nineteen, count the people you love on one hand, you will not, at forty, have run out of fingers on the other. There are so few people given us to love and they all stick.

To anyone who ever put doubt on my lap, hopeless thoughts in my mind, past mistakes in my hands and regret in my eyes, I want you to remember that you did not succeed in trying to ruin me.

My pride is stronger than my feelings. don’t try to play me. I could think of you 24/7 and you still wouldn’t hear from me.