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The Glorious Continuum of Wonder

Hello (My Body)

It is so nice to meet you

My Knowing has longed to connect with you

To accept you

To befriend you with loving curiosity

I thought you had to be seen by others to see yourself

I know that is a lie, a cheap reflection and perception

Within you I have found my North Star

I acknowledge your light, your darkness and your strength

Your limitations that are…

Exiled From Myself "I never thought clarity and discernment to be loaded words, or to be “dangerous” prayers..."

Lucidity in Self-Perception

It has been a year since I decided to leave Utah and move to Florida. A year since I decided to make a decision that was based on only what I wanted; a decision that was both uncomfortable and difficult, and left me with a nagging inner-critic that said I wasn’t justified in pursuing my dreams. There were many motivating factors behind the decision to move, but…

  Comparison and Contrast: Good vs “Bad Guys” 

The title of this blog sounds like a college paper. However, I think comparison and contrast is a valuable life skill and can be applied to any area of life.

These days the media is full of stories about sexual abuse, harassment and sexism. Hundreds of men are accused of sexual assault or sexist behavior daily. I want to provide an insight, a…

Hearing

  I am imprisoned in silence

Your insecurities

The prison guard

I utter wordless screams

But you do not listen

  What I have to say matters

You won’t you listen

My thoughts are vast and deep

My heart cries out

Desperate for you

                                                                       To listen

Wisdom falls from my teeth

I am strong, I am kind

Why won’t you listen?

Longing…

Thanks for reading and sharing in my journey

  Sometimes I look back at my life and think where along the line did I hop on a train with a drunk conductor? I thought I had my story mostly figured out since I was a small child. I wanted to travel and I wanted to have a career. I did exactly that, traveled the world, joined the military, earned my Bachelors degree, and hustled my way into a truly incredible career. But there have been many…

Thanks for reading and sharing in my journey

  Sometimes I look back at my life and think where along the line did I hop on a train with a drunk conductor? I thought I had my story mostly figured out since I was a small child. I wanted to travel and I wanted to have a career. I did exactly that, traveled the world, joined the military, earned my Bachelors degree, and hustled my way into a truly incredible career. But there have been many…

The Storie(s) I didn’t Intend to Write

  Sometimes I look back at my life and think where along the line did I hop on a train with a drunk conductor? I thought I had my story mostly figured out since I was a small child. I wanted to travel and I wanted to have a career. I did exactly that, traveled the world, joined the military, earned my Bachelors degree, and hustled my way into a truly incredible career. But there have been many…

  Brutally honest and open musings. No hiding or pretending. But despite the darkness, there is hope. There is light and I am onward and upward.

    Freedom begets more questions

Self-trust

  Tears, oh so many tears. When will they stop?

Even with no liquid left in my body; my heart is crying

A cloud has settled in my soul

A bad day

  Who is hiding down there? There in the recesses of my soul?

D…

  Brutally honest and open musings. No hiding or pretending. But despite the darkness, there is hope. There is light and I am onward and upward.

    Freedom begets more questions

Self-trust

  Tears, oh so many tears. When will they stop?

Even with no liquid left in my body; my heart is crying

A cloud has settled in my soul

A bad day

  Who is hiding down there? There in the recesses of my soul?

D…

  All is fair in love in war?

Fairness flies away when love

Turns to war

~On War

A Short Story entitled "And Then the Humpbacks Came" The brilliance of the sky was only matched by the brilliance of the sea...

  The brilliance of the sky was only matched by the brilliance of the sea. They sat close; not touching, but close enough to soak up the presence of each other. Their minds wondered lazily, occasionally scanning the turquoise horizon for any sign of the migrating humpbacks. Sea eagles floated by on the breeze, beautiful and free.

Faced with a choice, staying to pursue a perfection that could…

Where are you? I’ve been waiting My soul supplicating the universe Generations have come and passed...

Where are you?

I’ve been waiting

My soul supplicating the universe

Generations have come and passed

Remember the little market we had on the street corner?

The hustle and bustle of our neighbors?

Scurrying to and fro on the cobble stone streets

The love we shared in our tiny apartment above the shop

The love filled the walls to the brim

Dripping out of the windows and door frames like honey

That…

Today,  I pulled out a letter encased in a thin yellow envelope, and with shaking hands I read it, though not for the first time, for by now it’s faded and worn. Written in royal blue ink, it’s pages are slightly wrinkled...

  Today,  I pulled out a letter encased in a thin yellow envelope, and with shaking hands I read it, though not for the first time, for by now it’s faded and worn. Written in royal blue ink, it’s pages are slightly wrinkled at the edges. “My beautiful, beautiful baby,” it says. The words are a gentle balm to my heart, a caress felt through a piece of paper; It is precious to me. It was sent from…

My latest blog - I hope you laugh and are uplifted

  When I cook, I use recipes as guidelines. I read two to three recipes on the same concept and then wing it. Kind of like my life, I seek out advice and wisdom and then usually say “YOLO” as I wing it my way. However, some recipes should not be “winged.” At eight years old I tried my first (and last) foray into baking; by the time my lemon bars were finished, you could practically bounce off the…

My new poem "Hearing"

  I am imprisoned in silence Your insecurities The prison guard My body shudders in wordless screams But you don’t hear   What I have to say matters You won’t you listen My thoughts are vast and deep My heart cries out Desperate for you  To listen Wisdom falls from my teeth I am strong, I am kind Why won’t you listen? Longing for my heart to be seen To be known Drop the armor of your fear Lay…