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“I stay up late every night wondering how you can sleep so peacefully while I am awake crying.”

“your smile makes me happier than my favourite song and I’m sorry about the blood on my wrists and the tears in my eyes but I am a storm and you are the sea and together we are chaos”

“if I could changed one thing, it would’ve been to kiss you. kiss you and never tell you goodbye. because saying goodbye means forgetting. and forgetting means the end of us.”

“I stay up late every night wondering how you can sleep so peacefully while I am awake crying.”

“I wish I could run away and never fall in love. with anyone. I want to fall in love with nature. I want to fall in love with my surroundings instead of the people.”

My heart broke when you left me. Then my world collapsed when I realized it

“‘Are people so unhappy when they love?’ ‘Yes, Christine when they love and are not sure of being loved.’”

“Say you’ll share with me one love One lifetime Rid me, save me from my solitude Say you’ll want me with you here Beside you Anywhere you go, let me go too Christine, that’s all I ask of you”

To whoever loves me next, I’m sorry if I’m afraid of you or if days of flirting turn to radio silence, without warning. I’m sorry if I make you say the words over and over and over until I believe them. (I’m sorry if I don’t believe them.) I will probably spend more time worrying about losing you than I spend trying to keep you. Trouble is, every single time I’ve ever thought something was too good to be true– I’ve been right. Understand, I will know how to be vulnerable with you, but I won’t know how not to regret it. And I have no idea how deep we’ll be into this relationship before I admit I’ve never done this before. Not really. Not in any way that counts. Before I admit that I know how to put my body inside someone else’s but not how to make it beautiful. I probably won’t be easy to love. Too many people loved me badly, I’m not sure I know how to do it right.

i am not the person you left behind anymore i have new favorite songs, a new favorite color, new bad habits my hair is different, my heart is different, my soul is different the scars on my heart are now stars i am shining brighter than ever the freckles covering my skin are a map of my future and my past i am lighter than ever my smile tells stories of the places i’ve been i am happier than ever i’m not the person you left behind anymore remanence of the past still lingers but there is no one left here to miss