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❝  It’s just “Dumb Junior” again. Everything’s just “Stupid Junior”s fault! “Moron Junior” can’t get anything right! Oh, that sounds JUST idiotic enough to be a Junior thing!  ❞

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    He looks at his phone briefly before locking it. “The least you could do is take good pictures.” Deak sighs, reaching out to grab the phone and unlock it once more, the nudes reappearing on screen.

    The added weight is common and the familiarity remains to where he doesn’t immediately remove himself from the contact. What an odd concept to bring up so suddenly. “I suppose,” he agrees, continuing his writing. “But for some it isn’t, and for that few it keeps them living.”

        An odd, odd concept. Deak could say for certain that he didn’t care for romance, romantic inclinations were signs of dependency and he had no need to fill some need for being dependent, but for others perhaps that dependency was such a necessity in life.

        “In love with someone, brother? Denied? Pity.” He sighs, briefly, putting the pen down momentarily as he glances at the paper. 

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❝  What?  ❞ The indignant squawk is mirrored with a look that says they are clearly on two completely different tracks. ❝  No, not me you dingus. Didn’t y’hear me? I said romance is dumb. Most romantic thing I’ve ever done is get arrested at the zoo.  ❞

Best date, honestly. Definitely something he’s going to have to do again at some point, maybe with something even more ambitious than a tiger. Then again, death doesn’t sound fun. Maybe if he sedates his target first.

Harumphing, he dropped his chin into one palm, glaring at a wall as if he might see through it… or see it catch on fire, if he stares hard enough.

❝  I meant Lavi and his stupid boyfriend.  ❞

Is he still bitter? Damn straight he is.

Is he going to continue to be bitter? Damn straighter.

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Sighs.

I don’t know… what course of action I’m supposed to take.

I weigh all of the possible options. I account for the variables. I try to predict the various paths each might follow and where each path might correlate or diverge.

I apply the potential for good and bad outcomes both and try to further narrow the likelihoods based on predictability and desired results, but beyond a certain point, I can’t narrow it enough, still.

What do I do?

How do I get this right?

I play each scenario in my head, I try to see where they’ll lead, and the same scenario and the same variables could lead either in a good or bad direction. How the scenario plays out in reality yet further defies the intention with unaccounted variables for which there is no way to gather data on.

So thus falls the question of, what if this course of action is the wrong one?

What am I missing if so?

Of all possibilities, I know what two are the most pressing, but without all important data, to make a choice is impossible, yet on the same token, to not make a choice is impossible, as it is making a choice to not make a choice.

What do I do?

Do I persist? Yet in persisting, it might exacerbate the problem, thus rendering the intention or even the possibility of solution null and void. In such persistence, one might question an inability to listen and follow direction, that such would indicate a disbelief in the truth of the claim, and thus further reflect a lack of respect and consideration. The conclusion then comes to the point that the pursuit of any other course but to completely sever and erase all chance for amends, perhaps then to break all possibility for even the most basic contact, is therefor impossible. All things end, in their entirety. There is nothing left to salvage.

So then, the next logical question must come forth.

Do I leave it be? This may pan out to be the better of options, as it expects none, but a quiet acceptance of how things are, and in that way, perhaps, a kind of peace is achievable. Yet inaction may yet be worse, as it may imply then, in its uncontested silence, that such is not worth the effort. It was a trivial matter in the end, and so to let it be, without bothering to attempt all that can be done, may instead create the image that such was never worth putting forth the effort to save. Thus, this dawns the name of Cowardice, or perhaps even Cruelty. As untreated, a wound may fester. It may indeed be that what they seek to is the solution to the equation, to see resolution followed through on in its entirety and exhausting all possible outcomes, negative or positive. Yet it may be only sheer arrogance to project such assumptions.

So is the course then to take action, under such arrogant assumption that they desire the same thing? Or inaction, even in accounting for the possibility that in doing so, standing by and doing nothing, may be worse?

By what standard then should the gain and loss be comparably accounted for? By which measurement by the correct course be found?

To assume either is correct or incorrect can then become a fatal mistake, impossible to revoke and redo should the incorrect be chosen, especially when, contextually, following up a previous course which then proved to be the incorrect course. Such then becomes a pattern destined to repeat, and solution becomes further and further impossible to reach, as bias taints the outcome and favors, or alternatively disfavors, a particular result.

Such bias, then, can replicate itself, reaching outside the containment of where it first spawned and further prevent progress or, in the worst case, evolve into yet a larger, more complex problem, with a greater strain of variables to account for, and yet more unaccounted.

Then again rises the question, action or inaction? The scenario can thus not even exist without one or the other. In the contemplation of such choice, as there is never any question towards a choice being made, inaction becomes inherently favored, and contemplated for too long, stops existing merely as a variable but then becomes The Rule.

This rule may further be accounted for on both sides of the problem, subsisting in Independent and Dependent variables both. Should both sides choose inaction, then the solution mutually becomes to do nothing at all. So then, as it is the method chosen consistently across each involved, it may then be assumed this would be the correct option to choose, as it is in agreement with each one.

Yet, when investigated further, this may in fact be the incorrect course to take, defying the rule of thumb with consistency when solving equations on a basis of most common or likely results. Complicating such seeming simplicity of shared pattern, to diverge from the path of least resistance may yet prove the better option, and lead to better results should it be pursued.

Yet, this course may yet be incorrect still, and instead of reaching an exponentially higher gain, may instead see the formula self-destruct, yet until the mixing of Incompatible is tested, its volatility remains otherwise undiscovered.

Indeed, by some paradox, or need for better insight into the variables of the problem, and perhaps the forming of one entirely different from the one sought to be solved, it may be that neither are correct.

The question which follows is then, what is the next equation that needs be run through and considered? And then, in a cycle of rinse and repeat, the possibilities explored and exhausted until that, too, may prove too incorrect or incomplete to solve.

And in time, perhaps, when those courses have each been explored, and found in fault, one may return to the same problem and wonderings of solution that began this spiral, yet still without having gained any more insight into the potential solution than one began with, a realization that, yet, only weaves frustration in as yet another variable that must be accounted for lest it taint ones view and the results that follow, and beware the development of false positives that may, in turn, create or exacerbate the problem, until solution thus becomes truly impossible through the creation of bias that cannot be uprooted.

The question then returns.

Action, or inaction?

The answer must then be simple, as contemplation has gone on for so long, that only one ending may be accounted for. Yet in inaction, one may still yearn for what better might come of action, yet without action, one will never see the possible fruits of such labors. Yet it is in the consideration of how one may have already found what fruits there may ever be, and the knowledge that seeking for better may see them spoil in the pursuit of better, or worse yet, may see the fruits of another’s spoil, that inaction yet still becomes The Rule.

It may thus be concluded with solidarity, and against whimsy or the possibilty of a real Better, that correct or otherwise, inaction becomes the solution, and in choosing inaction, one then still performs an action, thus rendering all things leading up to it moot.

Therefore, the question, in its paradoxal spiral of action and inaction, remains.

What do I do?

I don’t know…

I hate this.

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❝ …filthy sinners, all of you.  ❞