Just Things I Like

A straight boy I worked with once told me Brideshead Revisted was his favorite book of all time. He even named his cat Evelyn after the author. On his recommendation I read the book and loved it too. The homosexual undertones were really what drew me to it. I thought maybe it was this boys way of sending me a message. He invited me over to his apartment to talk about the book. It was the first time I had ever been high. We laid on his bed and I was mesmerized by the fairy lights hanging from his ceiling. He took out his guitar and played songs for me. As I walked home, still high and full of yearning, I thought it was maybe the most romantic night of my life. But, like Charles and Sebastian, our relationship never went further. I sometimes wonder what that night was like for him and whether he too wanted more.

When someone you love offers a bid for connection, you say yes every time. When someone sends you an article, a video, a funny post, it’s a bid for connection. They are trying to connect with you. When someone shares details about their day, their life, their thoughts, or their feelings with you, that is a bid for connection. They want to connect with you on a deeper level. They are trying to pull you into their world. If you love them, you say yes every time. Yes, even if the article they send is not particularly interesting to you. Yes, even if it means listening to them ramble about a game you don’t care about and think is stupid. Yes yes yes. And let’s hope they always say yes to your bids, too.

huge shoutout to trees and also rain

crazy how i find myself thinking i've got a handle on it all finally and then i see the ways that other people tangle their lives together so easily and live so easily together with their friends and i feel like that girl at the top of the stairs painting by norman rockwell

Green Hands Coffee - Fukusaki