Just Awefull

Should I even sleep at this point

i just watched Your Lie in April and I have hurt myself significantly ;___;

It's so stupid sometimes. I think so much I can't sleep. There's so much I need to say but can't. There was a moment I gave up on. Now I'm here.

seriously need to take a long break from tumblr, gonna queue up till next week and then focus on school

I don’t usually give up on things, I call it tenacity but I’m starting to see it as stubbornness. I really don’t see anything coming out of this effort anymore. There really is a time and place for everything, and there is always a first time for everything. I think this is the time to stop hoping for something good, and either go for it or give it up, the latter making more sense. It’s just.. Something draws me in. I want to put forward all this effort but the sad part is I know I’m wasting my time for this.

In our last moment you were everything, I couldn't breathe in a world that wasn't in your embrace. In this moment you're still everything. I can't seem to find a place that isn't tainted with memories, the ruins that litter my life. But in a few moments, maybe fewer than I'd assume, I'll find a place to take a deep long breath of fresh air.

So that p!atd and fob mash is making its rounds from the death I’m inspired to do another

I want to mean something to someone, I guess. That is all.

It doesn't feel like i'm that likeable though. that's my problem.