kieran

i've talked to a therapist and she thought i have add from how i talked and acted in session, as well as how my mind jumped from thing to thing between sessions, and i've been in the diagnosis process for a few weeks, but now i'm starting to doubt myself??? it could be all the neurotypicals telling me how normal it is. could be them telling me they also do the things i do. literally everyone tells me they relate when i talk about the adhd things i do, like forgetting names and conversations and blanking out n stuff. makes me doubt myself.

anyway, i feel like i don't have adhd now. mostly because my ex best friend caused me to set really high standards for myself which made it really hard for me to feel like i was enough, so having adhd helps that. it could also be that anxiety masks my adhd in the sense that i'm so scared to get assignments in on time that i'll finish them ahead of time, and i'm so scared to mess up that i frequently check and double check my work to make sure i did it right.