This Blog Isn’t About Julian Anymore

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So around 2019, I got into a fucking awful car wreck, and my family recovered the cds from my car along with whatever I had in it at the time. Like, my entire music library in that car was recovered. That was like, pre-shit-hitting-fan.

I was prepping in December to move to my new home now, and I sorted through the bag of all the things from the old car, which had all my cds. All the cases were busted and cracked, but all the cds themselves were fine. I thought it was fucking stupidly poetic that all the Julian and Strokes cd cases were nearly obliterated. The side project cds suffered less, but I still gotta be careful when moving them around. All of the music except for Tyranny, Phrazes, and all The Strokes cds are in my car now.

I just finished moving all my stuff, and one of the bags I grabbed while packing was the bag with those cds. I... I don’t know what to do with them. There’s still this like, attachment. I had these cds since high school. The music went through to college, my work, my first car, and now sitting in a bag. It lingers in my mind, should I discard the frustrations I have against Julian so I can enjoy the work of all the other members? I have Nick and Albert’s solo projects. I listen to Nikolai’s music on YouTube. How can I ignore it? Should I even ignore it? He was a different person when these tracks were made. Or was he like this the whole time, and only now we see it?

Okay so like it’s been a while, and I don’t have the links anymore to a lot of stuff. But, basically, when the Voidz first formed, Beardo already had some... not so good things about him? Like around after a few concerts people brought up that he was getting flirty with underaged concert goers. So people reached out to Julian, and like, the situation just kind of died? I never got to see any resolution to that unfortunately, I think collectively we just hoped it would go away? Obviously I should have like, stopped supporting the band right there but I was stupid and thought it might have changed for the better. And sometimes I would see it being memed, where people would blur him out in the Voidz photos.

Fast forward to 2019 where people actually started bringing up more stuff about Beardo on Twitter with evidence. A good number of people messaged Julian about it, and like, that’s where more problems started. He might have thought the mass messages were like, spam? I’m not defending him on that excuse. So he ends up blocking a bunch of people and saying people need to stop trolling, or somewhere along those lines. Needless to say, this was like, very hurtful. After all, he’s “woke”, he should understand sexual harrassment is bad?

You can unfollow now, and move on with your lives.

If you want to read, I’m going to share something personal. When I was a kid, I really wanted to do music. One of my favorite songs was Reptillia, because I played a lot of Guitar Hero, and I gravitated to that song despite the game for it being fucking hard as hell. A few years later in high school I was going through a ton of bad shit. By chance, I stumbled onto The Strokes via Pandora. I hardcore went into their discography. The music got me through such terrible times. I began to look more into the band, and into the band members. I became attached to them, I looked up to Julian like a hero. I was not immune to making idols. He was what I wanted to be.

Later in the second half of high school, I changed schools, and the Voidz formed. I should have seen the red flags, honestly. But I was so excited to be apart of a time of new music from Julian. The track record with Beardo happened, and then eventually just faded away. I graduated high school and moved on to college. I pursued a degree in music. That fell through, I got a job instead and dropped out of high school. I was still an avid fan and listener to all Strokes related projects. Eventually Virtue came out, and I went into that album so hard. Every track I loved. It all just really made me emotional, I even wanted to do an animation to Permanent High School.

I began to drift away from this blog. I had a few times in the past. I was content with the music I was listening to. And perhaps, I didn’t want to know if anything bad happened. More stuff with Beardo happened, and now things are just snowballing. The music that got me through hard times now only brings me depression. It’s not cathartic, it’s just sad. I felt like I was mourning every time I thought about the situation. I put my hope in Julian, I looked up to him. I shouldn’t have. Don’t have heroes. It didn’t start out that way, but it eventually became that situation. I wanted to be him, but now I want nothing to do with him. I leaned my lesson, I don’t get too invested into bands anymore. I have a new music taste. It doesn’t hurt to listen to music anymore.

If you’re still here, thank you for hearing me out. I’m not anyone special, but I’m pursuing something now that means more to me, and something that belonged to me, not just borrowed from people I looked up to. I’m working on webcomics. I’ve hit many road blocks, but I’m still trying my best. If you still want to keep in touch with me, my main blog is @siromany

I do artwork, but I don’t really talk about myself much. I’m mostly multi fandom and a good reblog train. You don’t have to follow though. I’m going to do something with this blog, because I feel like I don’t want to give this url away. I don’t want to add more to his base, I’d rather it be used for something completely not about him anymore.

There’s a bit unsavory feelings going on, and reflecting on the original purpose of this blog was... not good. I’ve changed the blog mostly to a concert photo set reblog train now. So, in order to focus on other ventures that I’m currently pursuing, like my comic and real life stuff, this blog will now be on hiatus. Should I learn more info about what’s going on with Julian and the Voidz, it will change whether or not I want to pick this blog back up. Peace out my dudes.