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like yes i love how much content there is but i put off watching most of the shows until recently and now i need to watch all the xmen movies too and the old marvel shows (daredevil, jessica jones ect.)

like ohhhh mio you want zoe to see how big and strong and cool you are??? yeah?? you want her to be impressed with you???

gayass.

my beta, who is just as feral over them as i am:

pebble vs door!! who will win?? (Not Hans)

Happy Valentine's Day! 💞

I actually played this scene twice, once with full armor once with my armor-charisma clothes mesh. Because of obvious reasons. If you're wondering why the screenshots aren't consistent with what Henry's wearing, that's why.

Now, let me just get the AAAHHHH! It's happening! holy shit! out of the way.

Alright, so I actually already saw gifs of this scene, since, well, duh, but it is not the same as playing it. Not at all.

So, Hans's story about Lancelot and Galehaut is one I heard already from spoilers, still, that was so sweet, and kinda awkward and he was so unsure of himself as he was telling this story, comparing Henry to The Knight because that's who Henry is to him. The truest off true knights, even if he doesn't officially have the title. Like I said before, Henry acts like Hans's ideal of a noble and a Bellator, of course, Hans would compare Henry to a legendary knight!

Hans wants to be Henry's protector so bad. We hear it when you find his poacher camp and he says he's doing it to get us money. He wants to go with Henry every time he is in danger. He mentions his own survival as dependent on Henry's survival and now he actually says it to Henry's face, cleat as day because he doesn't know if he'd get another chance.

When he says the "why the hell can't I save you for a change?!" he sounds on the verge of tears. His voice is chocked up, he really thinks Henry's about to die.

And I don't know if Hans could've found the courage to do what he does next if he didn't think Henry (and then he himself) were likely to die soon. If he didn't think this is the last chance to say it. To tell Henry just how much he cares about him the way Henry was telling Hans throughout this whole game and Hans kept deflecting and trying to keep it straight.

I also add here these two lines I found in the game dialogue file in the area for Hans's lines in this scene, but Hans didn't say them in either times I played the scene:

Hans: This is terribly unjust. I should go with you. Hans: You're only going to risk your neck because… because… you're not of noble birth.

And these get the same point across I mentioned earlier, so I'm adding them here.

That part about everyone seeing Henry's life as worth less than Hans's really funking bothers Hans. This story, this conversation, is in part, Hans telling Henry he doesn't see it that way. That he would die if Henry dies. That to him Henry's life is as valuable as his own if not more so. That he wants to be there, in danger, with Henry, because that would be the just thing for how worthy Hans sees Henry's life as. And for Hans to do his job as a Bellator right next to the truest Bellator he knows, who just so happens to be a bastard.

I screamed when I saw this, paused, paced my room, then sat back down and pressed "kiss him" because I did not make it all the way here to not kiss Hans!

(Also, the two other options look like they suck... not that I'd ever find out, I'll never break Hans's heart like that)

But Henry doesn't kiss him. He looks at him like that, and reassures him he'd be back, resting a hand over Hans's that is resting on his knee, a simple gesture, sweet, reassuring, but still plausible deniability is in the air.

I do want to note Henry's expression in the choice screen and right afterwards seems deep in thought. He was really deliberating with himself what to do. And you chose to kiss him. I choose a kiss, and Henry deliberated and decided that he can't. He wants to, but he can't — out of fear, uncertainty, Hans isn't like Bartosch or Rosa, he actually cares about him and sees a future with him. He can't just kiss him like that — so Henry overruled my decision and just rested his hand over Hans’s.

Another thing that kills me, is that Hans smiles when Henry puts his hand on his, and then that smile is fucking gone when Henry stands up.

I mean, what is Hans thinking: did i read it wrong? Is he not interested the way I though?

Because these are the same thoughts I think Hans had when Henry told him he cares about him, maybe more than he knows. Because the "maybe more than you no" is hard as fuck to dispute as a love confession unless you have a bad case of denial and self worth issues.

But Hans here, is way more desperate. He thinks Henry might die, and he won't be right beside him. And he is so frustrated and wants to make a point about how much Henry is worth to him. And he can't let this go unsaid if they both die, so he acts. Impulsively.

And Henry really leans into it before he pulls away! He closes his eyes, angles his head, pulls himself closer before pushing himself away!

Now, I captured two shots of Henry's face afterwards and rewatched the scene on youtube cause I wanna figure out why he made that face and pushed Hans away (or at least, my own two cents on it before I read other theories that effect my view of it) (I also rewatched some scenes from KCD1 and I can't believe these two idiots didn't figure it out sooner...)

Now, we know this isn't internalized homophobia or disgust with Hans/himself. It can't be since Henry acts like he knows he is interested in men when flirting with Bartosch at the Trosky banquet. He isn't grossed out by Herbalist Barnaby or Brother Lucas in KCD1. So this reaction is something else.

You see Henry's chest moving, breathing hard, he lowers his head, looks back and forth between Hans, the door and nothing in particular — it's clear he is uncertain and conflicted, but why?

I mean, he told Hans "I care about you, you know... maybe more than you know." I believe Henry is 100% aware he loves Hans in a romantic way at this point. It's clear when he rests his hand over Hans’s. It's clear from the fact Henry considered kissing Hans — the fact we got the choice means Henry thought of it. And he knows men are an option (Bartosch), so what's going on through his head here?

My best guess, is that he pulls away from the same reason he overruled the player's choice to kiss Hans — he actually cares.

Bartosch is a one night stand. Rosa is a one night stand. Most romances in the game are quick affairs and not people Henry expects or cares to have a future with. But Hans — Hans is his lord, his best friend, his closest person, his actual love.

We see time and time again Henry doesn't mind risking himself (and this relationship is a risk), and he wouldn't mind risking Bartosch if Bartosch is fine with it. But he would very much mind risking Hans.

I think the disgust on his face is a mix of fear, disbelief, and yes, disgust, but at the thought of him, Henry, being the cause of a risk to Hans. That's the last thing Henry wants to be. To me that expression looks conflicted. Like Henry isn't sure what to think or do. The quick glances back and forth really add to that conflict and uncertainty in Henry's mind.

Sure, he loves Hans, but he doesn't want to be a danger to Hans if they were ever found out. He doesn't want to be a weak spot or blackmail material.

That's why he steps away. Sacrificing what he wants for what he sees as Hans’s safety and greater good. Which is a very Henry thing to do.

Then Hans starts apologizing with that broken voice and Henry can't leave him like that. Which prompts him to lock the door and lock in on what he wanted for some time now. Hence the very confident, very clear actions from Henry in the rest of the scene.

Again, these are just my best 2 cents about this.

On a more lighthearted note: