Jules ☆

Tldr; im archiving and im sad but i'll be okay

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I'm doing really, really badly.

I feel like crap. Ive been in and out of hysterics all day and i went to bed for the night 4 hours before i normally do just because ive tired myself out feeling like this. Im doing really badly. I don't think I was this bad when i had to change schools the first time.

Life has hit me with everything at once and just over and over again i'm hit with something even worse than last time. I'm tired. I'm hurt. I just want everyone to stop and leave me alone. I feel like I'm rotting.

That being said, I'm probably going to be okay. I've been through worse, and I'm still here, and it takes a lot to really, really shake me. I'm going to be okay. I don't know when I'll be okay- it could be tomorrow, it could be a month from now, it could be longer. Either way I'm going to be okay.

Don't wait around for me. I'll peek back here when I remember to but I have no idea how often that'll be. I'm going to archive this blog instead of just deleting it.

Tldr; im archiving and im sad but i'll be okay

[[MORE]]

I'm doing really, really badly.

I feel like crap. Ive been in and out of hysterics all day and i went to bed for the night 4 hours before i normally do just because ive tired myself out feeling like this. Im doing really badly. I don't think I was this bad when i had to change schools the first time.

Life has hit me with everything at once and just over and over again i'm hit with something even worse than last time. I'm tired. I'm hurt. I just want everyone to stop and leave me alone. I feel like I'm rotting.

That being said, I'm probably going to be okay. I've been through worse, and I'm still here, and it takes a lot to really, really shake me. I'm going to be okay. I don't know when I'll be okay- it could be tomorrow, it could be a month from now, it could be longer. Either way I'm going to be okay.

Don't wait around for me. I'll peek back here when I remember to but I have no idea how often that'll be. I'm going to archive this blog instead of just deleting it.

Alone but not lonely !

Fall in Michigan’s Keweenaw Peninsula

Lake Superior

              A VARIETY & MIXTURE OF ANGST SHIPPY PROMPTS,

                  CHANGE PRONOUNS AS NEEDED/FITTING .

❛    i   love  you.  do  you  love  me?   ❜

❛    i  thought  we  loved  each  other.    ❜

❛    why  are  you  with  him/her/them?   he’s/she’s/their  not  good  for  you.   ❜

❛    please  ..   don’t  leave  me  here  alone  to  rot.   ❜

❛    you  deserve  better.   ❜

❛    why   haven’t   answered  my  calls,   my   texts?   ❜

❛   you   vanish   for   three   days   then   decide   to   come   back   around?    ❜

❛   i’m  worried  about  you.   ❜

❛   i   don’t   know   if   what   i   feel   for   you   is   love.   ❜

❛   [ name ]   told   you  i   was  bad   for   you?   ❜

❛   you   always   pretend   you   don’t   care   but   i   know   you   do.   ❜

❛   you  don’t  love  me  anymore?   ❜

❛   why   won’t   you   ever   tell   me   that   you   love   me?   ❜

❛   you  didn’t  miss  me,   not   even   a   little? ❜

❛   can   we   just   have   one   more  kiss.   ❜

❛   don’t   say   that,   you  don’t  mean  it.    ❜

❛   please,  don’t   do   this   to   us.  ❜

❛   nothing  is   stopping  us  from  being   together   except   you.   ❜

❛   i’m  sorry,   i   won’t   do   it   again,   i   promise.   ❜

❛   i’m   not   in   love   with   you.  ❜

❛   why   are   you   doing   this?   ❜

❛   you   know   we   can’t   be   together.   ❜

❛   i’m  not   jealous,   just   curious.   ❜

❛   we’re   kissing   other   people   now?   ❜

❛   well,    you’re   not    allowed   to   leave   me,    ever.   ❜

❛   just   tell   me   where  the   hell   we    stand   at   now.    ❜

❛   stop   messing   with   my   emotions   because   you’re   unsure   of   yours.   ❜

❛   tell   me    this    isn’t    true,    please.   ❜

❛   you  broke  my   trust   which   is   worse   than   breaking   my   heart.   ❜

❛   i   can’t    always    help    when   you’re    in    trouble.  ❜

❛   i   thought   we   we’re   done.   ❜

❛   i   just   want   to   love   you,    let   me   love   you.   ❜

❛   you   pretend   you   don’t   know   me   in   front   of   your   friends.   ❜

❛    no,   i    cannot    just   be   your   friend.    it’s   not    enough   for   me.   ❜

❛    you’re    just    going   to   leave   without   saying   goodbye?   ❜

❛   i   don’t   want    anyone   else   but   you.  ❜

❛   how   can   you   treat   me   this    way?  ❜

❛   you   don’t   deserve   him/her/them,   you   deserve   better.   ❜

❛   you   know    i    will    always    love   you.   ❜

❛   you   shouldn’t   have   came   here.   ❜

❛   we    are    not   meant   to    be.  ❜

❛   you’re   not   in    love,    you’re   obsessed.    ❜

❛   i’ve   been   searching   for   you   in   everyone.   ❜

❛   do   yourself   a   favor   and   stop   loving   me.    ❜

❛    your   mother/father   didn’t   love   you   so   you   think   no   one   can.   ❜

❛    you   can’t    break   my   heart    twice.   ❜

❛    we   can   run   away    together,    start   new.  ❜

Julie: that’s called a coma

tw: drugs. these are all things that have been thought while stoned.

“Soup is just hot cereal.”

“We can have opinions on anything, including our own opinions.”

“What if I die the wrong way?”

“Tongues are weird.”

“What happens when we run out of music?”

“The songs It’s Raining Men and Let the Bodies Hit the Floor could be about the same event from different perspectives.”

“What causes taste?”

“Who decided what was hot or cold?”

“We should just wipe all the debt off the Earth and start over.”

“I always forget snow is wet.”

“I want to read some weird Latin and see if crazy shit happens.”

“I’m going to find a book with pictures.”

“I think I lost my identity.”

“What if the internet is run by aliens?”

“What if politicians are aliens?”

“Urgent sounds less serious than emergency.”

“Breathalyzers are just reverse vapes.”

“Do furries shower or wash their suit in a machine?”

“I wonder how long it would take to read everything on Wikipedia.”

“Why do we wear shoes when the cavemen didn’t?”

“I love the texture of avocados.”

“What if every movie is happening in the same universe?”

“I thought of how to cure global warning. Attach Earth to rockets and fly it farther away from the sun. Problem solved.”

“What do fish do?”

feel free to change pronouns / wording !

“ we may have a problem. ”

“ looks like someone was playin’ with fire… ”  

“ put ‘em outta their misery. ”  

“ element of surprise is not on our side. ”  

“ who the fuck is this ? ”  

“ your fingerprints are all over this. ”

“ they fucking got him ! ”  

“ you armed up ? ”  

“ can you help him ? ”  

“ you broken ? ”  

“ you saved lives today. ”  

“ this shouldn’t have happened in the first place. ”  

“ lie of the fuckin’ century, that is. ”

“ let’s just take the bloody gloves off and fight. ”  

“ this occupation must end. ”

“ that’ll get their attention. ”

“ too far on that path and we lose ourselves. ”

“ if they see your weapons, they will shoot. ”  

“ this is where we split up. ”  

“ you’re resourceful, good. ”  

“ please - she’s just scared. ”  

“ don’t be a stranger. ”

“ check your shots. ”  

“ get your head on straight. ”  

“ they will kill you ! ”  

“ you’re wasting good ammo. ”  

“ do exactly as you’re told, or you’re a dead man. ”  

“ i chose to take you alive, i can still change my mind. ”  

“ we are all killers here. ”  

“ they’re breaking through now. ”  

“ we need to engage these guys. ”  

“ fuck off. ”  

“ still fighting the good fight. ”  

“ don’t move. ”  

“ keep your head down ! ”  

“ are they armed ? ”  

“ laughter is the best medicine. ”  

“ what happens when the CIA goes to sleep ? they go under cover. ”  

“ nothing but the wind. ”  

“ go on … don’t be shy. ”  

“ i’ll go ahead and make sure it’s safe. ”  

“ look what you did to my leg, you bitch ! ”  

“ i don’t think they saw us. ”  

“ don’t complicate it. ”  

“ we take care of our own here. ”  

“ i’m not asking. ”

“ show me your hands ! ”  

“ rise and shine. ”

“ we’re cut off, it is only us now. ”  

“ just like old times… ”  

“ too bad we couldn’t kill him twice. ”  

“ what you’re doing is illegal. ”  

“ you look sick … ”  

“ no one is coming to rescue you. ”  

“ you think this is a game, huh ? ”  

“ we will make them pay. ”  

“ even war has a high ground, stay on it. ”  

“ i can get you in. after that you’re on your own. ”  

“ parking here sucks. ”  

“ you can’t hurt me, you weak piece of shit. ”  

“ you tried to be a hero, but you’re just an angry boy. ”  

“ there’s a fine line between right and wrong. ”

“ when you take the gloves off you get blood on your hands. ”  

“ end of the day someone has to make the enemy scared of the dark. ”  

“ we get dirty and the world stays clean. ”  

“ i can do this on my own. ”      

“ best advantage we’ll have is the dark. ”  

“ you have a few more ribs i can break. ”  

“ clear your head. ”  

“ this was a one way trip. ”  

“ i smell blood. ”  

“ don’t make this ugly. ”  

“ we’re all just pawns in this. ”  

“ we’re all a little crazy, aren’t we ? ”  

“ you’re a good friend, and a worse enemy, I’m sure. ”  

“ i’m a long way from a proper pint. ”  

“ that’s classified. ”  

[ SEND A SYMBOL FOR A DRABBLE ABOUT OUR MUSES ]                                                                            

☂:  our muses get caught in the rain outside without an umbrella

★:  our muses stargaze together

✈:  your muse is going away for a time and says goodbye to my muse or vice versa

❤:  one of our muses says the first “i love you” to the other

✿:  your muse asks my muse to dance with them or vice versa

☤:  my muse visits your muse at the hospital

☢:  your muse tells my muse that they need to break up

☯:  our muses have their first kiss

❅:  our muses have a snowball fight

☠:  my muse visits your muse’s grave

▲:  how our muses first met

➳:  how one of our muses asked the other on a first date

✌: our muses’ wedding

⌚:  my muse proposes to your muse or vice versa

[ SEND ONE OF THE FOLLOWING SENTENCES FOR MY MUSE’S RESPONSE ]

“Please don’t leave me.”

“I don’t want to lose you, okay?”                                                                            

“Because I love you!”

“And I thought I could trust you.”                                                                            

“I can’t believe you forgot.”                                                                            

“What did you do this time?”                                                                            

“We’re going to get caught!”                                                                            

“Kiss me.”

“I’m sorry, I screwed up.”

“I might be drunk.”

“You look beautiful.”

“That smirk is annoyingly hard to ignore.”                                                              

“Stop staring at me!”

“Please go away, you can’t see me like this.”                                                        

“Come on, dance with me.”

“I need you. I need us.”

“You can’t just lead me on like that!”                                                                      

“I can’t do this anymore.”

“Oh, I’m nothing special.”

“Just don’t forget me, okay?”                                                                            

“You have to let me go.”

“We’ll get through this together.”                                                                            

“You’re not alone, you know.”                                                                            

“Shut up! I hate you!”

“I wish this could last forever.”                                                                            

“Maybe I was right in thinking that I should never have even fallen in love with you.”

“What would the world be like without you?”                                                          

“Why do you like me so much?”                                                                            

“Are you okay?”

“Shit, what did I do?”

[ SEND A TEXT FOR MY MUSE’S RESPONSE ]             

[text]:  Fuck you.

[text]:  Where are you?

[text]:  I’m sick.

[text]:  I love you.

[text]:  I wish I could be with you right now.

[text]:  I’m at your door.

[text]:  Is that all you care about?

[text]:  Please stop talking about her/him.

[text]:  Just come over, watch a movie, and cuddle with me.

[text]:  Don’t even start.

[text]:  Is that all I am to you?

[text]:  Help me.

[text]:  Wait, what happened?

[text]:  I can’t go to sleep because you’re on my mind.

[text]:  I miss you.

[text]:  Good night.

[text]:  Stop leaving me voicemails, I’m not going to forgive you.

[text]:  Tell me you didn’t forget.

[text]:  I’ve had such a bad day.

[text]:  Don’t talk to me ever again.

[text]:  I have nothing if I don’t have you.

[text]:  After all we’ve been through, you can’t leave me… please.

[text]:  Breaking up over a text? You’ve stooped that low?

[text]:  Can you stop ignoring me for a second?