The Birb Man*

It was 5 bucks

Back when I shopped at Target

Cat Dad

It reads

A silly coffee mug

Its white face and bright letters

Made me smile

As I watched you play

I sipped my coffee

You demanded breakfast

The mug was there for years.

Through your ear infections

Your weight gain

Your diet you protested oh so much.

It held my tea while I wrote

It held some whiskey a few times too

Cat Dad

A silly coffee mug that I loved so much

I found it again today

Its been 40 days that you've been gone

I am so wrecked with grief

Its just coffee mug

But it was our coffee mug

It was the symbol that I was yours

You were mine.

Cat Dad it reads

Not anymore

Maybe never again.

I hid the mug.

Its been 40 days

And it feels i stopped breathing on day 1.

Cat Dad

A silly mug

On clearance at Target

Now a painful reminder

I was recently diagnosed with Meinier's Disease and with hearing loss due to chronic ear infections as a child (which no one ever thought it could be helpful to get tubes in my ears, but thats a conversation for my therapist.) I need hearing aids. Ive been using a demo set from my local State University and I am running out of time to get hearing aids through my health insurance. Now that I know how bad it is, I cant go back to ignoring it.

On top of all this, I lost my cat and little over a month ago. So finances have been. Bad.

I am very privileged I the fact that I have pretty good health insurance through my job, but I still dont make enough to have savings. All I am asking for is for people to share this, maybe donate a few dollars. I'm still trying to adjust to being HoH, I am actively looking for ASL classes and events in my area for the D/deaf and HoH community, and its just been hard.