(Itās long! And one of the first Journal Entries Iāve gone fully into making!)
āHow and Why that devil managed to āconceiveā, and I use this term loosely, is beyond me. Especially when itās taken in mind how careful with planning he chooses to be. But the outcome of two children that share such gains of his power is.. well- reckless, but that does give us a view that he isnāt as on his game as much as he once was, which in my eyes shows as a beacon of hope. Continuing though-
These two have been an eye opening pain in the ass to deal with in all the years that theyāve had to be in my lifeā¦ and thatās saying quite a bit. From the oddities that sprout from their fatherās genes to the oddities that come from each of their unique personalities that stem from their own special quirks, to study them has been an experience. Though, if I shouldnāt lie.. I may have chosen a favorite of the two for one reason or another and even if either manages to get a hand on my writing their opinion would not much matter in the end.
To begin on the first, Lily Cipher, a rambunctious but albeit pleasant kid to be around. An attribute which I could only give thanks to in the motherās raising of both of the twins which I presumed had fortunately been enough to quell any evil nature that may have been held in her soul. Along with the fact that there had been no contact with the father in her and her siblingās upbringing. Ignoring that fact- She can be described as a great help around the lab, seeing as age and stress have worn down my ability to keep steady with my motor and cognitive skillsā¦ she comes in handy as a shockingly fast learner, but to no surprise really as much as I donāt want to point the praise at where the origin of the ability may have come from, I do have my guesses to who it was passed down from.
She is a very curious and hyperactive child as well, being quite fascinated in the little things and anything that moves, she could only remind me of Mabel in her younger years in the most bitter sweet way possible. I pray for the moment that sheās alright.. but besides that point-
I find that sheās been a large help in also understanding, if not, being able to decrypt the genetics of my enemy, with her ability to shape shift into a form similar to the beings of Billās late home dimension, flatlanders as theyāre called, she has given key samples of skin and DNA that have properties no normal being can handle nor have. I believe she and her brother are direct keys in Billās downfall. And while I wish to be optimistic to the outcomes of their existence at the current time, I do hold dread for whats to come. As while I may have positive outcomes with the more sweet hearted siblingā¦ I have trouble describing the short tempered and snide one as such. Liam is another whole pile of bones to dissect but iāll get to his summary soon enough.
Lily, and what baffles me the most about her, is how something so, well giddy and sweet by nature, can come out of such a creature that can be so, by choice, dangerously and maliciously evil. But then again, that damn triangle had always had his charms at his hand, so it wouldnāt be a complete surprise if that had passed along to his spawn.
And as much as I want to be paranoid of my enemyās daughter, seeing first hand her grow up with no influence of her fatherās morals and presence due to her mother separating from that devil before either of the twins were born- it lets me ponder on the thought of the nature vs nurture theory and how whether or not natures of the parents pass down to the kin and how much it actual effects their psyche.
Albeit with Lily, she works on her own will with a good moral stand point and natural urge to uplift others in sometimes slightly odd but endearing ways. Though iām afraid that itās her brother that leaves me still questioning the nature vs. nurture stand point, as I couldnāt say the same completely for her twin.
Liam Cipher, a more reserved kid but leaning on socially aloof by choice, is one who leaves me sleeping with one eye open. Literally. Seemingly gained the temper of his father along with a slew of other worrying traits that I would rather not be in the presence of while someone has lit his fuse. He is the sole reason why I had to ban or at the least limit the use of both of their magic to the mundane and simple party tricks after an incident with him that cost me half my sight with a fit he threw when he was younger.
Though as his mother insists to me greatly, itās not the childās fault for the traits he was born with, he canāt help himself she claims. And while true to some extents I canāt help but feel the dread towards the thought of another Bill like being sprouting due to the āfreak accidentā of them being somehow made into existence. From the personality to even the damn voice that the kid shares with himself and his devil of a father, I canāt just shake off the feeling of a tense shiver that always crawls up my back when thinking of him growing older.
The only saving grace, and what calms my already paranoid nerves falls upon the ones I could think have a good hand in quelling those unsavory traits, the oneās I label the family buffers. I.e his mother, sister, and at times the cousins that are there to talk him down out of a potential blow out. I couldnāt even dare muster the thoughts to wonder what heād turn to if his mother nor his āsiblingsā, if I could even loosely consider the cousins as such, werenāt there to quell his snappy nature. But for the sake of my cortisol levels, I canāt let those scenarios overcome my already racing thoughts because I have enough to deal with now in taking care of both of the twins that have been enough of a hassle on my growing age.
Liam for the most part has made it clear that he has a distaste for me, I believe sprouting from my coldness towards his mother for being deceptive at the beginning of our begrudging guardianship over the kids. And he places it as if I have no good reason, if it wasnāt clear that I have some bother that hiding the children of that damned demon under my nose with what current family I have left wasnāt something to not be chastised for. Not to mention that her withholding from the implicit truth had allowed me and my great great niece and nephew to harbor an attachment to the twins which if I had known before hand their originā¦ would not have ended well for her.
But I am not heartless, I do understand the fears that may have accompanied the weight of telling the truth at the time. And Iāve learnt that I shouldnāt be one to not swallow my pride and say I know I would have probably acted rashly. But as someone who freshly lost what family they had left at the time I feel as if it wouldāve been just.
I donāt hate either of them, even while one may be more a pain in the ass than the other. I do believe I care for them in some sense. Liam is a help to me greatly, I wonāt downplay that factor at all, heās the one that helps me draw in the newer journal entries and goes out to scout with Chloe to do some cartography of the surrounding landscape. A quirk he seems to be great at with a sense of great direction and keen eyesight, something even younger me couldnāt get down right away. My body can only do so much these days as Iāve already made my point earlier that my hands and even now legs canāt do what they did often like they used to.
Heās smart, more smart than he gives himself props for, he knows how to channel a certain charisma and silver tongue that lets him find the best supplies, of course if it isnāt the case that he had stole them in the first place. And like his sister, there is no second thought to where he got that ability from, but itās better to not dwell on it, just for my sake at least.
Both are a handful in their own ways, but they have grown on me- and they do hold insight in how we may be able to stop weirdmaggedon once and for all.
And I pray that it can be in time.ā
(If you made it down here thanks for reading it! I want to make sure I have Fordās characterization down to some extent š My grammar may not be all that great but I tried lol)
