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Personal info

Willow Tammings (not real name!!)

18

might slightly age regress on this blog, not due to trauma (afaik) or a kink, just feels comfortable

Croatian

college math major

perisexual cisgender woman

they/he if I don't know you

she/her if I know you

lesbian

suspected autism and ADHD

pretty damn anxious, including socially

atheist

I have a main, but might not say it on here

What this blog is for

While this blog is indeed for journalling, I will never share any private or vulnerable information on it

It's public so that I have more accountability for my self improvement and so that I maybe inspire others to improve themselves

This blog is NOT for any kind of reposts, discourse or anything not relating to me personally. I assure you I have sideblogs for that

There's no DNI but I do block freely

Tags (for my personal use, I might search them up on my blog when I need them)

#willow says yay= general wins

#Willow was productive = productivity wins

#Willow's brain was good = mental health wins

#Willow says thanks = gratitude

#Willow says oh... = bad days (not the comic)

#willow worries = things I'm anxious about

#willow will= minor/daily goals

#willow dreams= major/life goals

#willow does = progress towards minor/daily goals

#willow realizes = progress towards major life goals

(we were playing numbers game and the question was about pubes)

already kind of a red flah idk

atp I thought everything was fine

i genuinely didn't think they had bad intentions at all

she kinda tried to change the topic so I decided to be nice too

she started being passive aggressive but I didn't realize at the time

I was praying for her to just drop it

we talked a little further like about past relationships and stuff and after a while she sent this

ughhh yeah I ended up blocking her

every day is divided into 2 hour blocks! I need to finish studying one subject wihtin one block and then I get to have a break for the rest of it

currently: 14:00

14:00 - 16:00 programming

16:00 - 18:00 either lin alg or mat anal and then dinner

18:00 - 20:00 dinner if I didn't manage last block, whichever subject I didn't study last block

20:00 - 22:00if everything went to plan, then play games. if not, then study whatever you did worst on

15:34 almost had a fit because WiFi went out. I was so mad so I took another walk (it's nice and sunny). I have a tolerate hate relationship with the carbonated magnesium heavy water I bought for cramps

15:36 practicing my active recall by, instead of just copying the solutions to problems, I read them and try to remember them first. so great. so...um...when are you going to start actually solving problems?

15:52 yknow maybe I should actually study instead of just looking at solutions...nahhhh

16:05 I think I'll try to solve part of this task on my own :/

16:13 im useless

16:23 I think I finally understand what structs are for :0

16:46 helllll no structs are still kicking my ass so majorly jesus fucking christ dude

10:14 started

10:19 review proofs (literally just textbook proofs that I try to prove without looking) are kicking my ass slightly but it's pretty neat! I like linear algebra

10:26 doing pretty well, I think. I love proofs that are just calculation, oyu can just turn your brain off and write

10:36 Finally done!! did I prove the last thing a lil clumsily? yeah, but it was fine

Goal for this study sess: 17 pages. is it a bit overkill? I sure hope so

10:42 Lesson 7.1:unitar spaces, DONE!! Did I ony ave one theorem left and most of it written in my class-notebook (as opposed to my Study Notebook, where I study uwu)? yes

10:54 curretnly on page 217. I started at page 214. so it was 3 pages over the last 18 minutes: 6 minutes pet page. at this rate, I'll be done by 12:18

Goal: finish lesson 7.2 within the next 25 minutes

11:00 if I do that, I'm gonna get on a bit of a walk since it's a nice sunny day. then I'll resume :)

11:18 got stuck on a tricky example...I'll fail :(

11:21 barely speedran it in the last 10 seconds. my stomach is cramping from my perioding (its' my first day). i regret buying the magnesium mineral water. i hate carbonated water and I kinda forgor it was carbonated

12:05 welp on my walk I got into my student doem complex's student restaurant and had lunch. real dampeneer on my plans. lunch was awesome though and I'm on my period so slack shall be cut

12:24 may or may not have daydreamt about Shutter Island to Abstraction by Kittensneeze (it's so andrew fr)

revise all 3 main subjects

study productively (no excessive breaks)

eat at least one meal in the cafeteria

don't go to the store (you're wasting your money on sushi every 2 days :/)

actually studied for an hour this morning instead of slacking

studied all 3 main subjects for at least half an hour today

brushed my teeth

came to school on time

and for the fact I bought blueberries

19:29 Started. I should really get a better way of doing these

19:31 Solved the integral of xe^x all on my own. yay

19:35 eyed a similar, but more complex task and noped out

19:46 finally understood that fuckass task. wont make it much easier at the exam

unit 5.6.1 complete

20:02 got distracted a bit. this fucking theorem is insane, there's like no distinguish between the theorem statement and the proof. I'll write it down but I won't be happy about it...

16:00 started on pg 209

16:13 still on definitions (pg 212 tho). ate a salad. i love chicken salads they make me feel good. also ate a cookie

16:25 only did Generalized Pitagorean Theorem :(

16:33 got distracted

16:44 gh cauchy schwarz bunjakowski theorem is as annoying to priove as it is to type

16:54 currently on pg 214, this shit confUSING

16:58 what the FUCK ARE poralizational identities??? I'm dead, I'm never becoming a famous mathematician at this rate, I'm gonna flop and hafta marry a man so we can afford an appartment and I'm gonna be miserable for the rest of my life

until i got sleepy cause no coffee :(

17:49 beginning

17:59 did one proof and am halfway through second

18:09 finished the second and did third even though it was trivial

UNIT 5.5 finished

18:11 I am once again amazed by how much I could do if I wasn't wasting time on dumb shit

18:27 solved 2 example tasks and am in the process of solving the third one

18:39 solved like 2 more tasks? these tasks are starting to pmo

18:52 got distarcted

13:27 beginning

13:49 vector multiplication of vectors is allegedly distributive. wtffff

14:03 proved a pretty trivial theorem about both sided quasi associativity and distributivity towards summation and then also a really fun one about the formula for vector products

14:17 having real fun with vector products. currently on proving Jacobi's identity. really trivial. love it

14:22 V^3 is Lie's algebra or whatever!! awesaome

UNIT 3.7 DONE

14:35 moved onto mixed products and proved that the mixed product is 0 iff they're complanary

15:58 workin on example 6.37 in the book

16:06 done with complex zeropoints of matrixes or something. didn't udnesrtand shit

16:18 grappled with an orange and walked around ranting about some dumbass tiktoker

16:29 tried to understand wtf Google Matrix is. making progress

16:35 proved that 1 is an eigenvalue of columnar stochastic matrixes. trivial. making progress :)

17:14 okay wtf