Joseph Kline //You,me and a memory

Currently very difficult to listen to music right now. Amy Winehouse is making it easier.

I’m writing this blog in the limbo between my last goodbye and hearing the final news about my grandmother. 

It’s my first time saying a real goodbye to someone. it’s my first time being old enough to be given a chance. I was always deemed “too young” and “too afraid” to say it before. I wish I was given a chance. I got to say so many things to her that I never did before. It was one of the most cathartic moments in my entire life. I knew exactly what I wanted to say. In spite of the emotion involved, I still managed to get it all out.

Admittedly, I’m still in a great deal of shock from this experience. I just can’t quite piece it all together in my mind. I’m so used to ignoring things for the sake of a more peaceful headspace. At this point I’m waiting for the finality of it all. It still doesn’t feel real.

Whisper and read What you believe I’ll climb the highest mountains Don’t come to me If you disagree Cuz nothing is won with coasting.

Sing your silence I’m not the one in trouble Weightless, Falling Now you’re alone.

Oh if you only knew that we could build a castle ‘round you And if you only knew your heart could dig a grave. I wouldn’t have to walk away, wouldn’t have to walk away from you, my love I wouldn’t ever walk away, wouldn’t ever walk away but you went cold

You went cold.

Put together a symphony Play me out like a movie You’re stumbling and I’m fumbling To keep in time with the ending, ending

After all this You say nothing Silent poison No antidote.

It’s been a long, long, long, LONG time since I’ve been on here. This 2016 year I’ve vowed to make regular endeavours to flex my creative muscles in different ways. I’m going to share Music, Photoshoots, DIY projects and thoughts from my ol’ noggin as often as I can. I’m hoping to offer some sort of new experience once a week of a variety of different things to keep it fresh. So let us see how this all goes. I don’t even know if the people who follow me are still even active but I shall soon find out. :) 

My first treat for this blog is I want to share the demo version of my next release.

It’s a song called “Monster” written in collaboration with a Norwegian producer named Nyanara who is absolutely incredible in every way possible. We met in Amsterdam and completely bonded like I’ve never experienced.

This song is about being manipulated whether by yourself, another person, a drug, a habit, anything at all really. Sometimes we lie to ourselves and act out as our own personal monsters and lose sight of who we are. This song was a manifestation of that. I’ve finally found a good place musically where I feel comfortable going outside of the box a little and exploring different “voices” so to say. I tried to design the vocal production in the verses to sound enticing, like this alluring voice telling you everything is fine and you have this friend to keep you safe. The pre-chorus for me is that rare moment of clarity when you realize what’s going on, that this “thing” has turned its back on you which takes you into this hypnotic chorus saying “Take my life” or do whatever you want with me I’m yours. It’s an echo of the cycle of addiction. At the end of it all the voice of clarity accepts their fate and gives up the fight and the song closes with that voice of denial droning on saying “Your secret’s safe with me.” 

I’m not committed to saying this is finished but I think the mixing is in somewhat of a place of decent listening. I’m also deaf in one ear at the moment because of a sickness I have so if it’s a bit too loud in certain spots that might have something to do with it. 

https://soundcloud.com/joekline/monster/s-XzHIB