My last post before I leave to basic training lol I can't believe how much time I wasted on you and how I still care about you, I hate myself for still caring about you I wish I didn't have to feel this way anymore I wish I would of never met you at that fucking party I think about how different my life would be. I know you're still not over him and it kills me knowing that you say you don't care but I can see it right through you i beat myself every day about it, thinking to myself if I could of said or done something differently to change you but there's nothing I could of done now that I think about it. Well I'm almost at this fucking airport I don't even know why the fuck I'm joining this shit maybe it's to get away from everything for awhile I just hope I come back a different person and not your bitch anymore.
