the Master of fear.

Jonathan grew up in a deeply religious and abusive household where strict gender roles were heavily enforced. From a young age, he was taught that any sign of vulnerability or perceived weakness was unacceptable. Religion was often used as a tool of control, and he was frequently punished, shamed, or abused under the justification that he needed to "man up." Growing up in such an unstable and unsafe environment left lasting psychological scars that continue to shape who he is as an adult.

Due to his upbringing, Jonathan developed a deep disconnect from his own emotions and a mindset that he is unlovable. Having been taught that vulnerability was a weakness, he learned to suppress his feelings rather than process them now that hes an adult.

he often claims he does not experience emotions at all, viewing emotional expression as a flaw rather than a normal part of being human. This detachment has contributed to a warped self-image and an inability to recognize or understand many of his own emotional needs with a fear of not having control of himself.

As a result, strong emotions often leave him deeply uncomfortable and distressed. Rather than processing what he feels, he tends to intellectualize, repress, or outright reject it. The more intense the emotion, the more likely he is to perceive it as a loss of control, making emotional vulnerability one of his greatest sources of discomfort. along with not seeing himself as human

Jonathan's detachment from both his emotions and his own humanity has contributed heavily to his self-destructive tendencies. He often views his physical and emotional needs as inconveniences rather than necessities, frequently neglecting them in favor of work. Long hours, exhaustion, and chronic overworking have become normalized to him, to the point that he rarely recognizes the damage he is doing to himself.

Nicotine serves as one of his primary coping mechanisms. Cigarettes act as a means of maintaining control, grounding himself, and pushing through periods of stress or emotional distress. Rather than addressing his struggles directly.

he also has repeatedly exposed himself to his own fear toxin in the pursuit of research. While he often frames these experiments as scientific necessity, they are also indicative of his unhealthy relationship with himself. He is willing to endure significant physical and psychological harm if it means obtaining results, rarely considering his own safety a priority.

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Most important detail is ic orange text – when dialog is in orange he is presenting as his scarecrow sona. A more unstable version of himself.

Cranes in his late 30s-ealy 40s in this blog.

There are multiple scars among his body from cigarette, chemical burn scars and more – feel free to ask mod or ic ask about em if you want to learn more.

He is demi-sexual, omni-romantic(no lean)

Due to his childhood He doesn't care about Gender Norms and is fine with people referring to him with He/they.

He is southern but has also detached from southern Roots going as far as masking His southern accent..