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Like I don’t want to have to think about or do anything.

Both my mother and father dumped all their shit on me, my gf is going through a rough patch…and I can’t ignore them cuz the guilt would mess with me more than the exhaustion would

I just need somebody to say, “I’ve got this” just for a month, let me fucking rest

It was almost 3 years of constant (and I mean 24/7) decision-making and caring for 3 other people and a house, while ignoring me

And it’s not much better now

My body hasn’t recovered. My mental health is walking a thing fucking line. I am exhausted

And I don’t have the luxury of falling apart or taking a minute cuz so much people depend on me

I am exhausted. I need a break. It never fucking ends. I swear

Got the courage to leave and fuck if I’m not right back there

Trying to stave off the depression but the loneliness is getting to me

But I can’t stop at just one glass

And after my 5th I’d need [redacted] to [redacted] me till I [redacted]

Which is, unfortunately, impossible right now

So let me just drink some apple juice and save myself the torture