Wage Slave

Today was somewhat okay to at the beginning then I accidentally break this thing in our kitchen faucet the whole mood changed. I’m trying so hard not to fall apart and to be strong for my kids. Life is has been rough this year and it’s getting worse as this year comes to an end, all this pent up anger that we keep it sucks. But I am completely miserable not happy at work, I’m not happy at home, I’m just not happy anywhere it seems at this point.

So yesterday I didn’t have my session due to them having an emergency with a client. So I was kinda bummed about still thinking about certain things so I’ll have to wait for my next session to talk about it. It’s feeling like the love isn’t there anymore and I don’t think it will be. Just to think it was all because I was triggered from a memory she brought up without knowing. Once again I let my anger come over me and I ruin an other evening

Work was okay today get home and seems as if somebody is annoyed just from text I was getting but what do I know they’re text messages right didn’t say a word to me when I came in. I feel like I’m not happy and I feel like she’s not happy either, I keep asking myself if should just leave, would I make things worse… will update later

Today went good, work went by okay today nothing major I was left alone for most of the part then I left work early to donate plasma for the first time. It went well except after I got home was all nauseous and dizzy took a sweet ol nap too. So it’s safe to say that was one of my good days. I have my therapy session tomorrow can’t wait to get more s*%t off my chest hopefully she doesn’t let me talk the whole time maybe help me find some solutions to help me out and get through my bad days. Been listening to All Shall Perish this weekend it kind helped

Carrying all of the weight of the world it seems like.. it’s been on a daily basis some days aren’t so bad but majority of time it’s bad..

Was listening to #thundercat I had never heard of this person or if it's a group but this track set the mood on my way home. #music has so much power and I mean real music not this rain drop drop top bs what ever that music is, but man my brother @askthedr knows what's up he told he just bought this cd and I haven't listened to tho the whole thing yet but I'm stuck on this track #lavalamp enough of this goodnight

#beer #craftbeer I got my beer basket today so stoked #IPA #stout #sourales can't wait to taste them #bourbonbarrelagedale big thanks to #tavour @tavour

#thezenithpassage (at Jerry's Pizza & Pub)

#local #localband #thezenithpassage came to watch my coworker and also team lead scream his lungs out (at Jerry's Pizza & Pub)

#classic movie #stephenking #it #pennywisetheclown

#emancipator (at The Roxy Theatre)

Came here to #westhollywood to catch #emancipator over here at #theroxytheater this show is dope lovein the #music (at The Roxy Theatre)