A month ago I had a fall down some stairs on the way to work- only stairs, not some high impact sport or piston fueled horsepower gone wrong, just the act of stepping down stairs at a train station during rush hour- and missing BIG time.
I was neither drunk, on the phone nor unfortunately looking where I was going, projecting my ‘to do list’ in the middle distance as I descended I saw the train doors paused and hanging open.
Making the rash, stupid, foolish and regrettable decision to speed up- …..can I make it?! Yeah sure I caaaa-BANG, lurch, totter grab and down.
Bloody ridiculous. STAIRS 1 me 0.
Reminds me of the Radiohead song lyric “…and you do it to yourself you do and that’s what really hurts…”
And it all happens in your head first- I wasn’t thinking about gravity or the miracle of self propulsion and muscular memory, nope. I was thinking of appointments, dates and deadlines- Tokyo life is pretty crazy, but that’s when I need to breath a bit deeper and defrag a little more- or even simpler; don’t rush down stairs.
After a month of recovery, missed work and reevaluated goal posts I have a new understanding and respect for the infirm and disabled. If a busted ankle reframes life to this degree how much more hard core are the lives of the seriously disabled?.
I can see how the extra life planning, the support, the mental and emotional strength they need to deal with their world experience might create a new and tested version of themselves, truly unsung heroes who do what needs to be done as best they can- respect.
The ankle injury highlighted so many things I take for granted- If I were a fish I wouldn’t notice the water till it was gone, in my case it was standing and moving on two legs.
Anyone recovering from a concussion, or any injury has a clear time stamp of before and after, and it’s not as if we get through life alive eh, but wow does it put things in perspective.
Crutches suck, despite people saying you get used to them you still have to handle the work load of moving through space with your hands, armpits and shoulders powering you.
Sure, they are good coordination challenges that really work out the upper body and I think the hands get stronger but yeah respect to all folk who use them on the regular, the distance to the corner never looked further than when I had to use them. I tried to race old people in walkers and totally lost lol- but they were japanese old people and they seem more sprightly than they should be….must be all the natto?.
Back on the good foot, quite literally now but I see stairs in a very different way- and view navigation in this world as a privilege best enjoyed with both eyes, and mind open and aware.