not even risking that shit

literally everything feels so pointless school looking for a job talking to people just living idk it’s like i don’t find joy in anything anymore but have i ever really done anything fun that was nothing more than a distraction ?? and i’m like failing my classes because i missed so much school being sick and it’s like i honestly don’t even care about bringing them up like fucking fail me the stupid school system already did HAHA

a girl in my school today told me that if someone committed a mass murder/ was a serial killer and were convicted to prison, if they found god and became religious while in prison, they would go to heaven yet I would go to hell because I’m gay?? That’s a scary mentality to have - I understand it’s your religion but that’s quite a damaging thing to say I think. She’s saying I’m worse than a murderer? Because I choose to love women? Crazy.