Going Richter

Let’s start with, it’s been a while since I’ve made my mark on here. Life takes over and then time and my commitment to words gets away from me. So here I am writing again, this time in my early 30s and plagued with life’s anxieties, ironically, my latest anxiety being about death. Yes. Death anxiety is apparently a real thing and I’m not just a weird chronic worrier (well I am actually but…

A poem is what came to mind. I’m up. I’m thinking. I’m pensive about the future and choosing prayer over worry. Choosing declarations of health over my family, as I stay the night and help them with whatever needs helping. I rest my head on the pillow; going to sleep confident of God’s plan and how I cannot mess it up even if I tried. I cannot not be comforted no matter what comes our way. I…

Now that I’m 30 and writing for the first time in a while I realize that I in fact, do have something to say. I saw something on none other than “Tik Tok” that said: “No one prepares you for this phase of life. Your 30s. How it feels to settle into yourself while grieving the life you thought you might have. The age when priorities shift. When friends have kids and you feel left behind. How it…

Being single has been a challenge for me this year. Especially this year. It seems like the older I get, the more frustrated and depressed I become. I’ve had days where I would just sit and cry because it breaks my heart more than I can explain that I haven’t found “Mr. Right”, or really, that he hasn’t found me. It’s really easy today in the world to not feel chosen, and not feel worthy. This is…