THE ART OF DOING NOTHING
Performance art makes me uncomfortable. Ā I understand that creating discomfort is often part of the purpose of a performance art piece; the artist challenges the viewer to examine the source of their discomfort surrounding an idea or issue. Ā For me, the source of my discomfort is not necessarily with the issue being addressed. Ā Rather, it is with the performance itself. Ā I personally dislike being the center of attention and I dislike causing conflict for other people. Ā When watching (or even reading about) performance art, I tend to imagine myself in the place of the artist. Ā Just the idea of my being the center of attention while deliberately trying create conflict for the viewer is generates a lot of anxiety for me.
Needless to say, I approached this assignment warily. Ā While I could generate several different ideas, I really didnāt want to do anything. Ā Ultimately, I chose not to do anything at all other than simply confront my own aversion to being the center of attention. Ā I set up a camera so that I could see myself and sat for a full hour as the camera took a time-lapse video of me watching myself. Ā I did not enjoy it. Ā I fidgeted a lot and my expression was often somewhat pained.
I donāt think this exercise changed my discomfort regarding performance art. Ā Watching other peopleās videos will likely be an uncomfortable experience for me. Ā However, I did appreciate taking the time to really understand what it is that I have never enjoyed about performance art. Ā Perhaps by understanding what I donāt enjoy will allow me to ultimately get past it and come to appreciate performance art more.
Sarah, I totally understand how you felt when doing this project because I didn't want to feel uncomfortable either. I think it has to do with possibly being judged since the camera is on you. Thanks for being so open about this and sharing!























